loads of things happened lately.
and its a lot.
about
friends,
about
band,
about
family,
about
school,
about
him.
about friends, simply. some pple might know what it is, some may not know, but i dont know why. i just feel that i get involved without any warning or notice, involved in their bickerings and fights and when they end up too sad, when they end up leaving each other, no matter couples or friends, i'll be the one left to console the both sides. im not saying that im not willing to help as a friend, but this is too much. no doubt i really hoped someone to help me when i was really down. okay, forget it. i dont want this to turn into a complaining part of this post.
about band, it has alr been confirmed. and although i was only with the band for about a year plus, i dont see why someone who was with the band for longer than i was wouldn't be sad that something like this is happening. i just dont get why someone would very much want this to happen, and im going to say, im going to hate this guy for every reason that i find. & i alr tried to control my tears, and preventing them from dropping out. i just dont know why, he cant wait for something like this to happen, HEARTLESS FREAK.
about family, i dont really wish to say much. conflicts with the LADIES in the house dont happen as much as they happen last time, but this time its the problem with the GENTLEMAN, the ONLY male in the house. i dont get why, why i said "i dont understand and dont know how to handle" with his company's things and he can flare up and link to all other things in the world. so whats the problem? ME? just because i REALLY DONT KNOW HOW? thats plain stupid.
about school, it has alr been a 12-year problem. e-learning is the hell of my life, and uploading and downloading assignments is a stupid thing to, and if the stupid connection runs low, thats it. everything goes all over again, and the whole system lags like no one else's business. i'd rather stay in the classroom to listen to lessons, then doing this stupid e-learning. and literature has been piling up like no one's business also, and its totally hell. but at least miss garfield extended the date due for the other book, but this current book is enough to kill me. and i've been burning night oil these few days, trying to churn at least something out of this book to make my assignment PASSABLE.
about him, i guess its really all over.
and i really hope i'll be better,
after screaming all these shit onto my blog.
iScreamed at o2.37pm
