Thursday, April 12, 2007
it was our big day, but it turned out to be my bad day.
its syf today.
firstly i would really like to thank joey for the postcard, huiying, rashid, yifang and cheryl and all others who wished unity symphonic band all the best for the competition today. i really appreciate it, thank you people. also, including the seniors who went to watch us and those who sent us SMSes wishing us good luck.
secondly, its really bad. i mean, okay. i didn't really have a good night sleep and very full rest but i was still energetic this morning. & we warmed up and everything as usual. and wong came and run through it, before going for the competition. but somehow things just drag and we were almost late for tuning.
of course when we reached the tuning room was somehow chaos cause we had to do our own tuning, in ten mintues. its not easy to do it right, when the high high B & D just goes out of tune and that note is one such long note in the melody of Sunrise.
10 minutes was up and we were supp to go and wait alr. all the gan jiong feelings come and go. but it ultimately made people cry, just before our turn. it wasn't wise, but it couldn't be controlled too.
it was our turn.
the emcee read our set piece as SAFARI when we were playing Sunrise, but no one pointed out, wong didn't even know until we told him after receiving our results BACK IN SCHOOL. and read our choice piece, "Rhapsody for Hanukkah". we stood up. sat, and played SUNRISE, which cause much commotion among the students in the first few rows cause they were excited to hear SAFARI.
played Sunrise. i think its still okay, just that we weren't that together at first. and some got messy, and some went out of tune. i feel bad, i really feel bad. for the whole of figure 12 and 14, the melody of the song, my notes didn't come out, i didnt continue playing also cause i was afraid i'll squeak. so i missed the whole melody. i pressed the fingerings, but my notes didnt come out. i feel really bad, i just lost concentration that split second, and i missed everything and it came and went, so fast.
played hanukkah next. and i really think it was really okay. maybe it was really the strictness of the judges this time round. the triangle wasn't together with the flute solo in the very first bar. but jessie's solo that followed next was pretty. and we carried on into the song. basically all the solos were very nice to me, especially yilin and wirda's saxophone and bass clarint solo at LENTO. it really made me feel so nice, and comfortable. i really loved what we played today, although there were really things that we didn't really settle, though.
went out next. hanged out outside and waited for results to come out. then i was sitting beside teddy, when the speakers suddenly had sound, and it was saying that the results would be releasing, typical singaporeans; crowded around the speakers and were like "SHHHHHH".
waited. i heard "band 88 Christ Church Seondary School Certificate of Participation". then i looked at teddy. the next was ours. i looked down, and waited.
"Band 89 ; Unity Secondary School. BRONZE."
the moment BRONZE was amplified over the speakers, my tears dropped down like anything, i cried terrible; repproaching myself, for parts that i didn't play and didn't play well.
mamachee walked down. i hugged her and cried terribly. really terribly. and then we went down to wait for our bus, we sat down. i was looking dazed, but i was still crying.
boarded the bus. i was looking out of the window, with my eyes, still filled with tears. it was raining there, heavily. for that split second, i really wished i could just walk in the rain and scream off all my stress and everything that has been on my mind that is making me more stressed.
slept then. i was tired.
and i went down the bus like some zombie. without ANY facial expressions. its just all the bad feelings that were overwelming me. and i went up to put my instrument, then went somewhere else to hide and cry my lungs out, silently.
some things happened. i'm unhappy with her. i showed her attitude. i showed him attitude too. but i didnt show mrs ong attitude, cause i respect her.
i dont want to talk about it anymore.
- i still love you all; we're still one family.
and tml will be my last performance as a member of Unity Symphonic Band before i step down. it'll be the last time i'll be playing my clarinet, 531857. for the last time, with the band. and after tml, my FOS for 531857 will be over, i'll miss it.
- iloveband.
its syf today.
firstly i would really like to thank joey for the postcard, huiying, rashid, yifang and cheryl and all others who wished unity symphonic band all the best for the competition today. i really appreciate it, thank you people. also, including the seniors who went to watch us and those who sent us SMSes wishing us good luck.
secondly, its really bad. i mean, okay. i didn't really have a good night sleep and very full rest but i was still energetic this morning. & we warmed up and everything as usual. and wong came and run through it, before going for the competition. but somehow things just drag and we were almost late for tuning.
of course when we reached the tuning room was somehow chaos cause we had to do our own tuning, in ten mintues. its not easy to do it right, when the high high B & D just goes out of tune and that note is one such long note in the melody of Sunrise.
10 minutes was up and we were supp to go and wait alr. all the gan jiong feelings come and go. but it ultimately made people cry, just before our turn. it wasn't wise, but it couldn't be controlled too.
it was our turn.
the emcee read our set piece as SAFARI when we were playing Sunrise, but no one pointed out, wong didn't even know until we told him after receiving our results BACK IN SCHOOL. and read our choice piece, "Rhapsody for Hanukkah". we stood up. sat, and played SUNRISE, which cause much commotion among the students in the first few rows cause they were excited to hear SAFARI.
played Sunrise. i think its still okay, just that we weren't that together at first. and some got messy, and some went out of tune. i feel bad, i really feel bad. for the whole of figure 12 and 14, the melody of the song, my notes didn't come out, i didnt continue playing also cause i was afraid i'll squeak. so i missed the whole melody. i pressed the fingerings, but my notes didnt come out. i feel really bad, i just lost concentration that split second, and i missed everything and it came and went, so fast.
played hanukkah next. and i really think it was really okay. maybe it was really the strictness of the judges this time round. the triangle wasn't together with the flute solo in the very first bar. but jessie's solo that followed next was pretty. and we carried on into the song. basically all the solos were very nice to me, especially yilin and wirda's saxophone and bass clarint solo at LENTO. it really made me feel so nice, and comfortable. i really loved what we played today, although there were really things that we didn't really settle, though.
went out next. hanged out outside and waited for results to come out. then i was sitting beside teddy, when the speakers suddenly had sound, and it was saying that the results would be releasing, typical singaporeans; crowded around the speakers and were like "SHHHHHH".
waited. i heard "band 88 Christ Church Seondary School Certificate of Participation". then i looked at teddy. the next was ours. i looked down, and waited.
"Band 89 ; Unity Secondary School. BRONZE."
the moment BRONZE was amplified over the speakers, my tears dropped down like anything, i cried terrible; repproaching myself, for parts that i didn't play and didn't play well.
mamachee walked down. i hugged her and cried terribly. really terribly. and then we went down to wait for our bus, we sat down. i was looking dazed, but i was still crying.
boarded the bus. i was looking out of the window, with my eyes, still filled with tears. it was raining there, heavily. for that split second, i really wished i could just walk in the rain and scream off all my stress and everything that has been on my mind that is making me more stressed.
slept then. i was tired.
and i went down the bus like some zombie. without ANY facial expressions. its just all the bad feelings that were overwelming me. and i went up to put my instrument, then went somewhere else to hide and cry my lungs out, silently.
some things happened. i'm unhappy with her. i showed her attitude. i showed him attitude too. but i didnt show mrs ong attitude, cause i respect her.
i dont want to talk about it anymore.
- i still love you all; we're still one family.
and tml will be my last performance as a member of Unity Symphonic Band before i step down. it'll be the last time i'll be playing my clarinet, 531857. for the last time, with the band. and after tml, my FOS for 531857 will be over, i'll miss it.
- iloveband.
7:26 PM & life, said so.
