okay. exams are OVER. o levels are OVER. good good good. i've been like shopping and shopping until like i'm afraid of shopping now. no matter its bugis, orchard or vivo. LIKE SCARED OF IT.
and i went band today. sudden decision. so, it was like. i became the SUPER NANNY for oboe. & then evil mr wong was like HAHAHAHA. oh man. really, stretching my own patience. and mr wong still can make it a joke afterall. oh man, like, super pro.
just, i'm scared of shopping. i'm serious. no joke.
&&. i dont know why. suddenly ah. its so different! LOL. how can something so strong be broken like just between WORDS, oh maybe actions? i dont know. maybe its like, eh i dont know lah okay.
teddy daddy, keep it quiet okay! maybe it should just be what i'm thinking when i'm like emo-ing. so, i might or might not. LOL. but i feel bad lah okay, to both sides. LOL. but what if i tried but it didn't work? am i trying to console myself by saying, HEY, STOP BEING STUPID. but, stupid is a mean word. yea, maybe it wouldn't work how hard i try eh! HAHA.
and so, ya. exams are over. i dont have like any other books with me. i hope so. lol. and yea. 18's prom. 26's sister's ROM. what else? ahha. and all the going out with darling. LOL. charmaine darling, you cant throw me away just because of boyfriend okay! i'll be like so damn sad if you leave me alone! LOL.
and yea. what else? i dont know. oh, i might be going to band like quite often cause of oboe. HEEHEE. but then, the stupid and sad thing is that the other oboe is not in school. deanna said its repairing. mrs ong agreed to loan to me until the end of this year, which is like soon ending alr? yea, i think its like. by the time the oboe is back, it'll be end of this year. so, sadded. i bought the reed for nothing afterall. LOL.
photo holds memories. then what do words hold? maybe, empty promises? no point forcing me to hold on, true. but, i dont know what i really want eh. this sounds stupid, but its true. i think i'm used to this kind of situation that i'm actually rather numb and yea, prefer not to do anything anymore? ha. i think so. should be, this should be the feeling of being numb afterall. too numb to feel anything. but wait, why am i like going all over again and again and again? its either i stay like this or i forget you, once and for all and yea, dont turn back again. but i cant. there's just something in me holding me back that i dont want to give up? yea. i think so. maybe, oh no, must be. but if i stay on like this, i know i will have to see you again. i dont want to make it turn out so odd and ya, like how i did when i walked past you like a stranger. the feeling of walking past someone you like so much like a stranger is not a nice feeling. the feeling is like super terrible and it sucks. especially when someone tells you again, "eh, like strangers walking past each other." this makes you feel worse eh. and indeed, after someone said that i really felt super bad. but why? i dont know either. like what i told you last time when we talked on the phone. like i said, sometimes when i look back and think back, its a feeling of so super sweet. upon thinking and looking things on how they are now, i just forget about it. i think you'll remember this. its significant.
so td. i'm sorry to let you read like this long long post. but still, i'm hanging on. (: [dont say i'm a pig] i came to this decision after i finished the whole damn post.
