sometimes, somethings are too complicated.
even if you want to know whats going on,
you must know how much you're worth,
before you have the rights to know it.
maybe its an illusion,
maybe its a lie,
it could be anything,
but perhaps none in your eyes.
it could be a feeling of being cheated,
it could be a feeling of missing badly,
it could be any feel that anyone feels,
for all i know it may not be true.
and so, sometimes,
somethings are better not to be known.
because the truth always hurts,
and the victim always cries.
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ahahah. we went for k-box ytd. lol. and it was all super funny and it was all crazy with jon singing some soprano for some songs. but still, it was fun. hahah.
then, it was Yuan Ching's band concert, for the parents. but we went anyway. hmm, i like the sound of the band heh! & miss tan, miss tan was conducting. i missed her so much, yea. they played songs we played last time. & pirates was dedicated to unity. my goodness, after the song finished we stood up and clapped. i think unity band was crazy last night. esp at songs like, big fun in the sun, and most importantly, cant take my eyes off you. hahaha. we were mad.
okay, then went for dinner after that. gastrics pain, as usual. then i was grabbing td all the way. hahah, cause raj couldn't stand the pain of the pinches. LOL.
after dinner, we went home, la. nothing much also.
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how come i felt nothing? do you know the answer? if you do, can you please tell me why i felt nothing much? just what is happening to me? i should be happy and on cloud nine because of that, right? but how come i didnt really feel much of the feeling that i'm supposed to feel? is the feeling going away because of time?
or is it because of the things i saw? but i know that there can be nothing done to change what i saw, so i already got used and accepted the fact anyway. but whats going on? i dont even have the answer at all. and i dont want this to be on my mind for a long time, cause its rather tiring. tell me, if you have the answer.
so so so so so so much so that i want to hold you back, but can i?
