as i was blog hopping just now, this question just came into my mind. just like what jonathanBANANA says, soon, these people dont even have the freedom to do anything anymore.
so i was thinking. Can policemen jay-walk?
this sounds dumb but ya, when you really see a policeman in his uniform, standing in the middle of the road, and waiting to jay-walk across. i really wonder, are they breaking the law?
but enough of this, cause this is super random. i have no idea why this scene that i was 2 nights ago struck me again but ya. haha.
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and so i was sitting on my bed just now, thinking how i should welcome a new year ahead and forget about whatever wrong things i've done in the past year.
am i supposed to behave like as though i just had a brainwash? nah, i dont think so. then i have to re-remember all the stuffs that i remembered for work. i dont want to forget my friends too.
how am i going to live my life again? this was something that led me to pondering on lots of things, like, work, study (poly or JC) and all stuffs. which ended up bringing me back to where i started, how?
do i really want to continue my life like this (as of like now)? this, i'm not too sure. but for all i know i may just go crazy and choose the another way out. i dont know whats going on also.
what would my attitude towards life be? i thought for this for a long time. then i was thinking, if there was nothing wrong with my past attitude, why change? i mean, it'll be a chore to change it. as it says, old habits die hard. which is like totally true. and this leaves me a question to ponder on for the rest of the year.
what is my ultimate goal? too many aspects to this that i actually didnt really feel like thinking and reflecting on this question. to studies, obviously who wouldn't want to get the best? to life, who wouldn't want to live it to the fullest? to relationships, who wouldn't want to be good with anyone else? but sometimes somethings are somehow so hard to get.
would i change and be a better me? i gave myself a yes. at least i know that i told myself that i'll change and be a better me, and hopefully its a positively better me.
did i grow up in the year that past? i had an essay of answer straightaway in my mind. to all aspects, i'd dare to say that i grew up, at least a little in the past year. to studies, although getting a good progress award dont really mean anything, but at least it proved to me that i've improved. to life, i've been able to look on things on the bright side and but not every time. so for this, i still have room for improvement. to relationships, i have to say, i would have much failed, and failing it terribly. this is perhaps a year that it wasnt easy for me to handle relationships between me or someone else, its not as easy as A-B-C this time round cause things do get more complicated when people dont talk. in fact, it was such a big blow to me about this friend that i actually had to sit down and think what was the problem and what was the cause. however, i didnt manage to get to the end of it. and so this was the end of it.
and after pondering after these few questions, i thought, i would be better for me to go and sleep now so that i can work later with a better mood. so thats all, i'm sleeeping. :D
