today's not my day.
slept at 3.30 this morning and woke up about 11 plus 12. although i had a wake up message which made my day upped a bit. but i blew it off myself. and it just make me feel like fool. damn, just tell me how you feel. i hate the feeling of being blocked of the truth. just tell me and make me feel better, no matter what the outcome is. i hate to just wait like a fool for smses to come in and while making jokes, my jokes turn to something that make me feel that i blew the whole damn thing. and this afterall didnt make my day, instead it made me feel that i blew it off on my own.
whats more. geog, i dont know what i'm doing anymore. there is endless in the pdf file but then there is limited that i want to put in the assginment. shit.
and people coming to talking suddenly and tell you how much they miss you as a friend scares and freaks me out. how can a person just change so fast? wow, he must have been to china to learn how to BIAN LIAN, change face. damn. i dont think i'll want to continue conversation with people like this. come on man, just admit what you said. damn, is that difficult?
today's really not my day.
but i have to cheer up and make sure i'm in the mood for tonight. its my dad'd birthday today. and there is a dinner. come on, i'm facing all the relatives and dad's friends and all. i must cheer up, despite all this shit is happening to me.
i need proper roaring lessons.
