despite the fact of the need to pass up WR by 2359, but i just wanted to blog.
a second time i'm crying in this relationship. if i didnt count it wrongly.
i know you want me to scold you so that you learn your mistake to not rake up the past. but precisely, its because i dont want to rake up the past thats why i dont want to scold you. i just want to let go of it and let it past. i was fuming, i'd say i was really fuming just now. and i didnt understand how come you can laugh about it over the phone, when i called you immediately to seek assurance after receiving that message. that made me feel totally so ridiculous and the only thing i had in mind was, "what the heck is he trying to mean by saying all this shit?".
you msned me, i busy-ed myself.
you called me, i silent-ed the phone.
you smsed me, i exit-ed the message.
i was fuming. i really was. thinking of why you didnt know how i'll react to stuffs like this, thinking of why you didnt know how to keep your promises to me, thinking of why you'd want to break my heart like this. i was waiting for you to realise that my keeping-quiet doesnt mean that i was willing to agree to what you say, i was waiting for you to realise that my keeping-quiet meant that there was a lot of thinking to be done.
but then again i was thinking about why you'd say those stuffs. it came across my mind that you may not be that sensitive enough about this issue than how i am. so fine and well, i gave up that thought. then again i was thinking, how come you'd say those stuffs like it was so easy and you can actually laugh over on the phone. perhaps it didnt just make me feel ridiculous. it really made me think hard think twice, if i was right in telling you in the first place.
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WR by 2359? fat hope. i may even skip school tomorrow.
