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2008-10-25T23:53:00.003+08:00

he is just online. he's just a click away. but i chose to appear offline. i chose to tell him the truth that he fucking make me cry every night.

but i dont want to keep hearing SORRYs from him.

2008-10-23T22:38:00.002+08:00

how come i cry so easily these few days?
how come i just think of you when the lights go off?
how come i feel so lost without you?
how come there are so many how comes?

i dont want to ask you for your immediate answer. but you're not a crush to me. you are my boyfriend. you should have told me whatever you felt at whichever point in time. and you know i wouldnt mind.

just looking back at our msn chat log kills me okay. it just kills me totally. it starts to haunt me all the way from the time we stepped back into singapore, up till the day before. from all the nonsense jokes, comparing who types faster than who, discussing about where to go, to ask each other to buck up during hard times, to help out each other in project work, till now, that we are like strangers; but we are boygirlfriend.

and just plain looking at the yellow big bird that belongs to you, i can just breakdown rightaway. i hold it so tightly even when i sleep. they used to be a pair. but now they are separated, just like us.

...

2008-10-07T19:37:00.001+08:00

freak man! the intensive timetable is screwed up!

2008-09-30T23:19:00.001+08:00

bloodyly kill that bloody caleb la please. he's just fucking gay. roar.

happy children's day in advance folks. we're always young at heart, no matter how chao lao you look. mugging starts after pw, effectively now. ):

2008-09-28T12:18:00.000+08:00

rahhhh. pw's back to haunt me again. this time its i&r. never mind. i shall be determined to finish it today and yay! i'm going to get my viewty today! YAAAAY. i gonna be such a happy skinnypiggirlfriend today. :D hahhahahah.

doddles people. (:

2008-09-26T22:43:00.002+08:00

uh. i've opened this window for long. but i typed nothing.

yea i guessed as much, cause life's like this and i've got nothing to say about life now.
all is like studying and studying.

and i just realised some of my classmates arent nice people afterall.
well, people like this are everywhere, so many that i can no longer tell.
but i have to thank for at least i have someone that i can really trust.

and ya. what is just revolving around me is just that magical word,
STUDY.

(:

2008-09-14T12:47:00.002+08:00

wr's over. yes ah!

but promo starts tmr. oh dont worry man. its just gp and the other papers are like in october. yjc is damn crap for this timetable, cause i remember myself complaining to CT miss lim n-times just because of this. hahah.

life's crap. i miss boyfriend. i miss the chin-chin. omg. i want to see him now.

i'm just missing him. sigh.

but i gotta start working hard now, cause i cant afford to fail promo, or i'll go poly (i think).

whatever.

i'm going study later at yewtee mac, catch me if you want. bye.

2008-09-09T23:47:00.002+08:00

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get my xanga link if you want it. :D hahahahha.

life's been great i think. maybe not so when you are mugging for promos. its here on monday. so omg.

chem lecture is the only lecture so far in my life that, i swear, i kept awake totally and was listening lah! omg. the lecturer shows a look of unspoken fierce, which totally made me experience cold shudders despite the super warmness of foxy (FYI: my yellow FOX pullover). apparently the chem reps were supposed to get the attendance list and return it 10 minutes later, and FYI again, i'm chem rep for my class. 10 minutes passed, and no one went until the lecturer heard the middle bell and said that our 10 minutes were taking long. omg la, every second i was off my seat, i was shivering!

alright, drawing lessons for wr. (: at least its something fun and i i like, i think. LOL

2008-09-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

FUCK.

2008-09-07T14:17:00.002+08:00

i knew weiliang will tag me, and unfortunately, he did. rahhh.

name: lauren/huiyi (up to you)
birthday: 28 aug
birthplace: kk hospital
eye colour: black
hair colour: brown black
height: 166?
right/left handed: right handed
heritage: chinese
worst habit: uh, being very very very irritating at times
zodiac sigh: goat
shoe size: 7.5
pant size: idk
innie or outie: what?
parents still together: yes
shoes you wore today: rotting-to-be slippers
your weakness: being too trusting in pple
your fears: PROMOS, and snakes.
your perfect pizza: hawaiian, lots cheese please!
goal you would like to achieve this year: PROMOTION TO J2!
your most overused phrase in msn: hahaha
your best physical feature: i like my eyes (without rings of course)
your bedtime: after 11pm, before 2 am, preferrably.
your most missed memories: relief teaching, unity times.

MY FAVOURITES
colours: green and yellow.
food: a lot i think?
sports: volleyball and rock climbing
animal: jeremy's dog, baby. :D
ice cream: AFTEREIGHT IN GERMANY! ):
candy: cola?
store: daiso, muji and toysr'us.
salad dressing: THOUSAND ISLAND SAUCE.
actor: huh.
songs: secondhand serenade
letter: uh, no idea.
number: 12
gum: none.
holiday: germany
season: winter
toothpaste flavour: i'm anti flavoured toothpaste, i only go darlie!
radio station: 93.3fm (but no longer listen to radio)
perfume: i've got sensitive nose.
secnt beside perfume: refreshing will do
body part on the opposite sex: 6 pacs

FRIENDS AND LIFE
what do you want to be when you grow up: air stewardess
how do you want to die: die early and painlessly.
turn on: uh, idk.
turn off: whatever.
which of your friends acts most like you: no one yet.
who's the loudest: NG XI TING.
who makes you laugh the most: anyone can la. (:
who have you known the longest?: gabriel ong js from jtpss to dlss and uss.
who's the shyiest?: good question. idk.
what is the best feeling in the world: being happy with the loved one!
worst feeling: lots man, dont wanna list out.
where do you want to live when you grow up: singapore i think?
if you could change on thing about you what will it be: negative mindset.
how long do you think you'll live: i want to die at 60 plus.

FINISH EACH SENTENCE
lets walk on the: cow. random i know.
lets look at the: one love. >< i'm listening to it.
where did all the: brain cells go?
why cant we: live as we are?
silly, little: nonsense skinnypigboyfriend.
isnt it weird that: i'm tolerating your shit?
never under any circumstances: that i'll kiss your ass.
i wish: i can turn you into a piece of shit.
everyone has a: brain that is innocent to start with.
i am: who i am.

HAVE YOU EVER
been in love: in one now.
been to juvie: what?
mooned someone? what?
been rejected: think so?
ran away from home:no.
picture your crush naked: i'm not crazy
skipped school: yes
thought about suicide: yes
slept outside: yes
laughed so hard you cried: yes
cried in school: yes
thrown up in school: yes
wanted to be a model: yes
cheated on someone: yes
done something really stupid that you still laugh at it today: yes
seen a dead body: yes
been bitched out: yes
drank alcohol: yes
smoked: no and never
been on drugs: no and never
eaten sushi: yes
been on stage: yes
gone skinny dipping: no
shoplifted: no
been drunk: no
been called a tease: no
been beaten up: no

DO YOU
swear: yes
sing well: i hope i do.
shower daily: NO I SHOWER ANNUALLY, oh please yes la.
want to go college: yes
want to get married: before 25
believe in yourself: sometimes
get motion sickness: yes
think you're attractive: no
get along with your parents: not all the time
like thunderstorms: only when i'm emo
play an instrument: clarinet
own an ipod: yea
pray: whenever mama drag me to temple
go to church: no
sleep with a stuffed animal: yes
keep a diary/journal: updated every 6 months counted?
dance in the rain: i'd love to
sing in the shower: forever

THIS OR THAT
pepsi or coke: pepsi
mac or BK: BK
single or group dates: single
chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
strawberry or blueberry: strawberry
meat or veggie: DEPENDS
tv or movie: movie
guitar or drums: guitar
adidas or nike: BOTH IF I DONT NEED TO PAY
chinese or mexican: chinese
cheerios or corn flake: corn flake
cake or pie: none
mtv or vh1: none.
blind or deaf: none
boxers of briefs: none

CAN YOU
do splits: last time
write with both hands: no
whistle: no
blow a bubble: gum no
roll your tongue in a circle: no
cross your eyes: yes
walk with your toes curles: no, later got cramps
touch your tongue to touch your nose: idk.
dance: unlikely
eat whatever you want and no worry: ya.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
you touched: my youngest nephew cause he fell down
you talked to on the phone: jeremy
you msned: nikhill
you hugged: jeremy
you yelled at: cant rmb.
you play a sport with: who?

WHEN WAS THE LAST
time you laughed: this morning
time you cried: ask jeremy.
movie you watched: i think its X-files
flavour of gum you chewed: cant rmb
joke you told: cant rmb
song you sung: mandy by jonas bros.

BELIEFS
life on other planets: no
miracles: yes
magic: no
love at first sight: yes
god: tuapekgong maybe? (dont mean anything)
satan: idk
ghosts: yes
santa: hell no, i got cheated when i was young.
evolution: huh?

can i leave out the last part? i want to do work alr. hahahah.

i tagggggggggggggg.
TAN PEIQI, YIFANG, CHARMAINE. ;D and whoever else who wants to do it. (:

2008-09-07T13:56:00.003+08:00

rah. uh. yea. CIP is tiring. made me sleep like a pig.

newton eating was good. cause all those long long never eat stuffs were inside my stomach again! :D

i gonna be so packed so packed all the way till december.

totally omgggggggggg.

and i miss all those yjc pple! ):

2008-09-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

xanga's up alr. but i'm trying to get familiar with all those using.

hooked to jelly beans now! :D

2008-09-03T18:17:00.000+08:00

rahhhh. WR WR WR WR WR WR WR WR WR WR WR. ):

2008-09-02T14:02:00.003+08:00

yup. i went out with charmaine yesterday. okay rather you'd say, i went out alone and then met charmaine. hahahha.

hmmmm, went to school just now for pw. uh quite not bad la, the discussion. the thing is i've been spending money on taking taxi la! i took taxi to school and took taxi home. like, omg.

2008-09-01T16:00:00.001+08:00

freaking; missing boyfriend's smses like anyone big donkey.

2008-09-01T14:47:00.002+08:00

you mean being seventeen feels this way? then i'd rather i'm sixteen. at least its sweet. seventeen'd days are like so stressful. with everyone, trying to struggle with all i have, when its just so meagre. with anyone, i think i'll feel more confortable. i gotta say, life really isnt that good after turning seventeen. too many struggles and too many fights and too many things going through my mind. i keep telling myself, seventeen is not sometime when you think of the past, its gonna be sometime that you think of whats coming.

and whatever. i know you're reading my blog. i know you all are. whatever okay. thats the word that i gonna tell you right smack in the face if i ever have the chance. so much for trying to thank you for what you did, trying to credit and yet i get a smack down crashing scolding. whatever is the word. like i said, HE'S GONNA BE OUT OF MY DAMN LIFE. AND I SWEAR HE IS ALREADY OUT OF MY DAMN LIFE. too bad if you effing dont believe it. getting me effing pissed.

and dont you worry cause you dont have to send me all those warning smses that get me effing angry. esp when its such a strategic timing when i was trying to tour around boyfriend's house. whatever okay.

damn.

and i swear i feel damn bad for telling jeremy not to sms each other cause i swear i wasnt in the right mind just now. and i just wanted to hear his voice. who knew we both arent in best form. and i just hanged up. i'm sorry jeremy. i'm really sorry. my thursday and friday are for you to raid. trust me. (:

2008-08-30T23:50:00.001+08:00

dont know why i dont have the freedom to blog, like out of a sudden anymore. just some incidences happened, which made me rather quite disappointed.

but anyway. went out with jeremy yesterday. which made me really very happy! firstly because i got to see his sister, amanda. she's a nice person! haaah. hmmm, then i went to jeremy's house. saw his dog, OMG SO SUPER CUTE. :D and his dog was following me around at one time. haha. so cute. and then i fell asleep on his bed. ahem, we did nothing.

:D

2008-08-28T21:49:00.003+08:00

yes my DORA AND FRIENDS balloon from jessica girlfriend! ANIMAL BURROW!

me and hannahkukufriend. (:

another one. :D

my birthday cake. HAHAHA. :D

and these three guys came visiting, they're so cuteeeeeee!

alright. my day didnt really start good actually. lets start from 00:00. i was rather disappointed that jeremy wasnt the first one to sms me happy birthday. but oh well, he's not feeling well. so i dont blame him. :D

then slept and woke up. as usual. then wanted to get out of house, BUT THEN IT STARTED RAINING. what the helll pleaseeee. and i was holding the boardddd. right. i totally looked like a mad woman on the train cause my hair was WET please. hahah.

then i reached yishun. jeremy was later than me. but i got quite angry at him for some stuffs. didnt open my mouth, nor look at him the whole time we walked to school. until after we tapped card, and i saw a rainbow then i smiled. hahahah. that sillyboy got worried so much. sorry dear! :D

hmmmmm, then it was gp. boring. i was cutting photos the whole time. then jessica gave me my dora balloon, and then weiliang,sihui,yiting,jessica gave me cards, and sihui and elmo shared a present for me. thanks!

math tutorial. they sang birthday song. haha. thanks!

what happened, aiya, cant remember. but then i know jeremy's present for me just scared the hell out of me. but yup, jeremy dont worry okay, i like the present. dont get upset for me scolding you about buying the present. and yup, after listening to your reason for buying the present, i accept the present la. :D

went to see doctor with jeremy, he's not feeling well. got rash and fever and all.

came home. chicken chop. damn shiok. and nobel aloysius and adrian came over with a cake and mooncake with a candle outside my house. until my sister pulled them in and then sit down and talk. i miss those wonderful moments when we just used to sit at a place and complaining and talking about just anything under the sun. i had that feeling back a while again just now. thanks people! i love you guys. :) and they're damn cute. they printed me a jacket. LOL.

and to all who wished me happy birthday through msn, sms, friendster, hugs and all. thanks people! you've contributed in making me have a happy 17th birthday. :D

2008-08-27T23:05:00.002+08:00

my last hour of being 16. hahahha. this' what nobel calls it. this funny little boy. hahah. he says there's delivery and he wants me to get home by 7 plus pm tmr. funny boy.

oh well. what to say about today? i'm happy. tiredly happy. happily tired.

school was. WHOW. hahah. odac was WHOW too.

alright bye. i'll be a year older in my next post alr. HAHAHA.

2008-08-25T21:23:00.002+08:00

omg i realised i havent blogged for long.

bloody hell. i'm supposed to sleep early today, and for the rest of the 2 or 3 more days cause i got freaking early morning MAKEUP PE LESSON AT 7.10AM. omggg. yjc really have nothing to do, only trouble for us only. omggggg. cant imagine myself taking the 6.30AM train toootly. GOSHHHHH!

and what now, odac's frisbeee and captain's ball made me super jellyfish alr. then jeremy twisted my left wrist with a crack sound, and i cracked my neck with a loud sound. omg la. totally casualty.

luckily miss yeo's not going to be around for geog tmr. and its like, OMGGGGGG! ONE AND A HALF HOURS OF MATH TUTORIAL!? great. i gonna SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP. i mean, seriously. i will man. damnnnn.

& i'm happpppy! :D cause i've managed to pass all my morning tests for ALL my subjects after block test! :D which econs is the one that made me totally happy cause i got a very very bad U grade and i passed the test! no doubt its just passing by half a mark, but i'm just happy i made the mark! :D and chemistry! its so WOOOH MY GODDD! hahah. i passed my chem morning test too! out of 8 passes in my class, i'm one of them! omgggg, too happy. dont blame me for showing off or whatever. i'm too happy. cause i'm a EBUUUU student k! :D at least i;ve gotten rid of all my UUUU for morning tests! :D HAPPYYYYYY!

& i miss jeremy. die. ahahah.

2008-08-21T00:48:00.002+08:00

alright. i missed my crumpler's second birthday by about 48 minutes.

time flies. my crumpler is already 2 years old. and many many things have happened over these 2 years. i've been reading my post on my crumpler's first birthday recently, and i just think that too many things happened. and i've been trying to feel how i was feeling when i typed that post a year ago.

well. time for some reflection i guess. but its not a time to emo.

so anyway, happy 2nd birthday my crumpler, the green green one who has a shoulder pad which was stolen from teddyadrianleesoonfah from unityband. hahaha. sorry td, return you soon, i'm serious! :D

to my crumpler: i love you for who you are, no matter if its your velcro that doesnt sound as crispy as other people's, no matter if your strap has some picked out areas, no matter if you look dirty a not. I STILL LOVE YOU! :D cause you're the only bag that i celebrate its birthday for. you're too important. :D

and yes. today went for the ningbo immersion trip briefing. was at the briefing to ningbo with jeremy, pinye, adelineoh and yaojunbearbear. and i decided to go, i mean, if my dad/mum allows la. which now i'm just left with convincing my mama. sigh. the price i have to pay for going to this trip is that... i have to at least pass all my subjects. thats my condition from my dad. sigh.

okay oaky, im supposed to be doing pw. right. so i'll be gone. jeremy's sleeping alr, that sillyboy is sick AGAIN! rahhhhhhhhh. hope he gets well huh. byeeeee. (:

2008-08-19T21:39:00.002+08:00

i swear, i was doing my pw all along. maybe you'd want to say from the moment i stepped into house and switched on my laptop, i started pw all over again. RAHHHHH.

and i gave steph the survey results. ding ding. i did ONE analysis, and i think i've got more to do. i need to go find out all the files they sent me last time. i need to edit wr. WOOOHHHHHH. cool man.

and i seriously think that i should bring laptop tmr. although jeremy keeps reminding me that bringing laptop is a waste of energy, that i know! but i've got one hour break in the morning. break from after school to odac, and after odac. goodness. long breaks tmr leh!

2008-08-19T00:01:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONICA! :D I LOVE YOU!

2008-08-18T21:38:00.003+08:00

i seriously didnt feel like blogging. i swear. cause there's a tonne of stuffs not done. damn.

lets see:
1. PW WR task allocation (VERY LAZY TO DO)
2. geography tutorial 2 (I DIDNT EVEN KNOW MUST DO)
3. math tutorial 3.2A and 3.2B (HOLY, DID NONE)
4. chinese homework to clear (DRAGGED WORK)
5. economics tutorial (BEFORE MR TOH SCREAMS AT ME)

rightttttttt. but i just wanted to blog cause MONICA SENT ME A POSTCARD FROM ENGLAND. :D :D :D come on man, i think i'm too emotional. i got home and saw that postcard, i just read and burst into tears! being emotional la okay.

:D byebye.

2008-08-17T23:39:00.011+08:00

i went studying with them today. whahahah. i'm super lazy to type. and i gotta do my chemistry questions so i'm not going to type. just see the photos. but they're jumbled up. =X

and a video about the breaking of the eggggg. HAHAHA

i swear blogger takes forever to publish my video. RAHHH. so i decided to stop it. char i'll upload the next time. its taking forever! ): HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

2008-08-16T22:34:00.003+08:00

it just super dont feel like a saturday to me today. simply because i went back to school. YES SCHOOL. YISHUN JUNIOR COLLEGE. rahhhh. on a SATURDAY!

cause i woke up about 6 plus, almost normal timing as weekdays. cause jeremy says he want to eat breakfast, so yup. but then.... JEREMY WAS LATE. so yup, i waited then ate and went to school!

logged in for dentention.

chemistry lesson was... GOOOOOOD. (:

went for my second detention in the end. hahaahha. but jeremy was there with me laaa. ahahahha. then did some chemistry studying. not very effective cause i kept losing my concentration on work. maybe because jeremy is there. LOL.

was watching the volleyball male match between Bulgaria and Italy. whoosh. not bad not bad. Italy quite good. whahahaha. and the Bulgaria's serving cost them too much alr! hahah. tuned to watching TODAY IN BEIJING now. whahahah. got my idol Jade Seah. ( she's damn solid, idk why but i just think so. she just dont seem like another bimbotic woman )

watching Michael Phelps now in the highlights. HE IS MAD.

gonna go mugging with hannah kukufriend tmr la. ahahah, at amk hub. i'm so going to do math and chem tmr, mugging for chem test on monday too! :D

2008-08-15T21:56:00.000+08:00

happy birthday TURTLE SALLY ELMO TAN YI TING! :D

2008-08-13T22:57:00.001+08:00

omgggggggg. this' getting me very worried. jeremyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy reply me asap! omggggg.

2008-08-11T00:42:00.003+08:00

stop staring lah tanpeiqi (laopo for 5 years). hahahaha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YO! 17 years old. you and that cyy and that delwin are 17 in URC alr! left me and aikhao, two poor souls still 16 years old. rahhhh. never mind, mine's soon too! :D very soon. muahahhaha.

yes yes, and its time to worry about when's URC meet up. tpq you dont ask meeee! ask cyy and lah. HAHAH. i should be okay, as long as its not too near promoss. good for you la, after your exams then you gonna break all the way till oct! nooo fairrr! ): haahhaha

and yup. flu. i've got flu. i know jeremy's missing me (cause he smsed me umpteen times about it) but ya, i just keep sneezing, damn flu is driving me crazy like anything. hahahah. and at the very least i didnt slack like yesterday. :D

i went to pack my room and took out the clothes that i cant/no longer want to wear anymore. and then i did geog tutorial but i dont know how to do last question. yup. and i studied a bit of econs. i cant believe it. hahahah. tmr cannot slack alrrr! omg!

things need to be done:
1. math tutorial 3.2, finish up. ):
2. econs monopoly essay test + ssp essay outline (optional)
3. read through chemistry
4. tuition homework, finish up. ):
5. chinese homework. omg.

i just suddenly realised thats a big load. plus tmr must wash clothes or my mother will take the barang and come chasing me all around the house tmr. omggggggggggg.

2008-08-09T23:51:00.002+08:00

happy birthday Singapore! :D you're 43.

hahahah. so its national day today. means its public holiday. that means lauren slacked for the whole damn day, eating, watching tv, sleeping. a pig life today. no studying at all. she even cancelled her tuition. HAHAH.

but no wait. she didnt cancel her tuition for nothing!

mama and papa had the you know the 7th month dinner. so i went with them. hahah. omg la the food is like getting worser every year. dont know why but ya. HAHAH. but still i'm quite full cause i ate quite a lot.

its just a momento now! ):

a photo taken a year and about 10 plus hours ago? hahaha. last year's national day celebrations in Unity. when monica was still with us here in singapore! HAHAH.

alright. getting tired alr. ); sleep so much but i still very tired! rahhhhhhhhhh.

2008-08-09T12:59:00.003+08:00

isnt he familiar to you? mr david wong! HAHA.

the march pass.

maybe you want to call that walking pass instead?

spoiler on the train.

after effects of that spoiler.

photos arent in order of happening. hahha. in fact, its from below.

so i was taking the train to Yishun from Yewtee to school. then i was leaning on the glass. so i was happily smsing jeremy. and then suddenly there's this big sound POM. the stupid guy's soya bean milk dropped on the floor. like what the hell. then i was just staring. didnt feel that the guy who dropped the soya bean milk deserved tissue.

and the thing that made me most angry was. the guy actually ran out when the door was about to close at Woodlands. apparently, it was quite obvious that he wanted to run away la. irrtating. and the train moved and stopped, so the lines of milk were there. and everyone didnt dare to step on it. and for once, on the morning 7.12 train, i had so much space to move around.

met jeremy and yup. walked to school. HE GAVE ME FROSTIES! :D

then yup, hall and all the shit happening. technical errors. lalala. the cheer comp was funny. and it really made us laugh la. HAHAH.

next was the track section. and so nice of them huh, seletar sit under the sun okay! the rest of the houses were IN THE SHADE hor. LOL. so yup. had the march pass. hahaha, i think they should call it a walk pass instead, seriously. and then, i realised JEREMY WAS INSIDE! lol. i was laughing when i saw him inside. whooops.

yup. and he came to sit at seletar despite the fact that he is a canberrian. LOL. all the events and all. after that it ended and i went home! hahhaha.

oh nono, before going home, we went to pick up my new bag at northpoint. hahah. a reebok bagpack, thats my birthday present from jeremy. hahhaa. thanksss darling!

yup yup, so i went home, uh jeremy came up also. hahaha. he watched tv and i went to bathe. after that, we headed for town! AHAHHAAH. omg la i tell you, 7-11's garlic bread is gooooood. :D so nice so nice! i super like it! hahahha.

oh yes. and then. we reached town. so i was saying we go eat la. haha. then walk walk walk. he heard band playing. stopped and listened, i realised it was enka volume one. hahah. then i see see, eh, band tee lime green, how come conductor look like mr wong!

soooo, i dragged jeremy and ran across the street and yup. it was mr wong with chung cheng high main. whahahha. stopped and listen. he gave me the i-am-so-super-shocked-to-see-you-here look. HAHHAHA.

talked to him a while after the performance and then we headed off to far east.

eat at the Sakura upstairs. walked around and all.

although its the fourth time i cried. i mean, i'm sorry about yesterday okay? shouldnt have been so emotional about the separation darling. its not as though you're leaving for good ma right? so you shouldnt do what i did yesterday okay! i'm sure, you'll learn how to be a better boyfriend. (:

alright, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-08-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

its coming in some hours! hahahah. 08.08.08

and it just nice is my dearest YISHUN JUNIOR COLLEGE'S COLLEGE DAY, with NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATIONS, and ANNUAL TRACK AND FIELD. whoa. nice huh. a 3-in-1 event tmr, i just feel like pwning tmr. LOL.

just playing super mario on nds just now. for one hour to get through one damn level. damnnnn! hahhaha. but its fun really. hahahha.

okay, had ssp for econs today. mr toh's the tutor for the programme i'm in. and i like his teaching style. at the veryveryveryvery least i understand what he is talking abouttttt. (: today was demand and supply. and next week's elasticities alr! omggggg. hahah.

geog got tutorial homework. not sure if jessica.chicken.chan.mrslim is going to school tmr cause i dont want to bring the tutorial for nothing. hahahahahha. OH YES. i just remembered. i was missing her after she took early leave today and then in math lecture i drew lots of flowers leh! LOLOL. sallyelmotanyitin (SALLY ELMO TAN YI TING) says that it looks like BEEEES. hahahah. idk la. i fill up the whole page first.

:D he gonna get me the bag that i like tmr. thankssss jeremyyyyyyyyyyyy. (: you know! hahha! and we're really gonna go out tmr alr. OMG LA, so long never go out alr. LOL. and its the last time we're going to go out alr. ): the next time will be after promossss. so, PROMOS PLEASE COME! :D

gonna eom, emo a whille. HAHAHAH. byeeeeeee.

2008-08-07T00:03:00.003+08:00

i still decided to blog! :D

okay, i did good deed. imma good girl okay please! ahahhaa. BLOOD DONATION.

my handwriting damn shit ugly please. hahahahah.

this' the prove. and they call me KONG LONG MEI for that. what the hellll!

tanyiting. HAHAHAH.

damn ugly. DAMN.

HAHAAH. i buay ta han, but i really think she look like one of the cartoon!

righttttt. i have to do eom NOW NOW NOW. and i really mean that i'm going to do it. and i still havent do math tutorial. HOLY ALR. rahhhhhhhhh. still got geog, how how how!

2008-08-04T23:32:00.002+08:00

problems with blogger and author, photo gone.

stephanie ask me to write "WATERMELON" hahahaha. swl dont scold her/me! :D

and its bloody ugly. LOL

deprived of childhood!

bubbles! :D

the scary swl.

thats all folks. tired and all. rah. byeeee.

2008-08-03T23:11:00.001+08:00

dieeeeeee. tmr got geog test.

2008-08-02T12:13:00.002+08:00

why do you always do this? you make me pin up high hopes, but fail me in the end. i've been trying to tell myself its not your fault, you're not to blame. i've been trying to tell myself its my contact lens that is making the water flow.

i'm trying to disappear.

2008-08-01T21:30:00.003+08:00

bad things happen.
and i really didnt feel good.
i had to stone to straighten out my thoughts,
but i dont have a conclusion in the end.

why do they happen?
and they are really not good.
they totally disrupt my logical chain of thoughts,
and i dont have a conclusion in the end.

i feel that made it happen.
and i'm feeling the total opposite of good.
they made me fell totally deep in my own thoughts,
and do i have a conclusion in the end?

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assuring me that i wasnt the one who made things like this. i know you dont want me to feel that way but i naturally just feel that way cause i think it happened because of me. even if it wasnt totally my fault, i contributed half. we're half-half.

the whole chain of my thoughts were broken by this. just in time when i was trying to get my things done. i'm not blaming you for me not getting my stuffs done. i just had to stone, to tone down and listen to what is going on around me.

but i just hope nothing goes wrong. i dont want to let my thoughts all overwhelm me at one time. i really had a solution, but its a cruel solution for the both of us and i dont want to introduce that to you at all, at all.

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A Twist in My Story - Secondhand Serenade

Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

And I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down
It turns around, say what's that sound

It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than ever
I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling so alive

My whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me

That's what you get
When you see your life in someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what you get

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
So you see,
This world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

2008-08-01T20:46:00.003+08:00

hello people! i'm happy! cause its a friday and its a saturday tmr! and i'm going out with boyfriend tmr, like finally. i so miss the "honeymoondatingperiod". ):

to cindy and pinye from YJCODAC! :D i've uploaded the photos there, cause i dont want to increase my photo memory in my blog, and odac blog no much photos so i added there. :D love me for that k, the both of you!

& yes. dont know why today so hyper in gp. i started singing songs and then yiting was like, uh what the hell and she sang with me. LOLOL. damn funny. and i got back my eom. righttttt, nothing much to edit, cause tutor said it was rather alright. but i a bit scared, cause it normally gets thrown back by sami with LOTS OF COMMENTS.

hmmmm, what else? oh yes, WR. must do a lot more of editing and all the stuffs. rah.

things that have to be done by this weekend:
1. mugging for h1 geography morning test (mon)
2. mugging for h2 math morning test (wed)
3. email edited eom to tutor asap
4. WR amendments
5. h2 chem reaction kinetics tutorial
6. h2 econs essay outline
7. tuition homework

bad news from jeremy. sigh.

2008-07-29T22:18:00.003+08:00

normal bread? its artificial lah!

from, jeremy's bread toaster.

whahahah. this was my present from jeremy today. i was so shocked la. and sihui, yiting and jessica were screaming over this present. whahahah. and they were super fascinated, i was too. thanks boyfriendjeremyskinnypig! :D

and yup. stayed in school to study just now, managed to hand up gp. phew. and i gotta chiong and email her my eom now. =X

CHINESE COMPO, ECONS ESSAY. bingo.

2008-07-27T14:10:00.002+08:00

had the impulse to go and rebond my hair again. and i've decided i'll just do that immediately when week 10 ends. cause i cant tahan the wavy-ness anymore, its getting irritating, more than irritating.

i just realised, im not that strong afterall. even though horoscopes say that virgos are strong. i still fall, i'm still prone to failing and falling.
but he's been wanting me to know that i'll be alright. thanks jeremy. (:

yes yes. tuition later.

my eyes are DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN SWOLLEN. RAHH. irritating. its so swollen and my eyes are so painful. ): its not sore eyes. but my eye lids are just super swollen. when i open my left eye fully, my right eye only say half a "hello". IRRITATING!

& i think i gonna sleeep now. until 3.30. :D but it depends too. and yes, i'm going to start to plan for mugging, cupping, bowling, plateing sessions with jeremy, peizhen, tys, and all the lalala people.

monday - odac.
tuesdays - jeremysendmehome day.
wednesday - odac.
thursday - MUGGING.
friday - MUGGING.
saturday - tuition.
sunday - pw(possible) + MUGGING.

oh my god. isnt this scary. but rah. its like, 49 days to promos! omgggggggggg!

to be done:
1. h2 math homework, tutorial 3.1B Q1-6
2. h2 chemistry reaction kinetics tutorial 8
3. h2 econs essay in market structure tutorial
4. gp comprehension + AQ
5. chinese compo
6. pw add-on

oh my tiansssssssssssssssssssssssssss. this is scary. every subject also got homework! RAHHHHHHH.

2008-07-27T01:22:00.002+08:00

embassadors for Chung Cheng High School Yishun.

YAAY. from left to right, shawn, jasmine, tinghui, lauren! :D

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so that was the math and science quiz. and the embassadors are damn fun! hahahah. we "click" damn well can! hahahhahaha! they are damn fun to be with!

went to eat sakae sushi with tinghui and jasmine! super full. and nice. :D

went to woodlands library to do some pw research. i was going to doze off, then i saw billy. LOL. immediately woke up cause i was so shocked. and after he walked off, i feel asleep. =.=

slept like anything on the train, SUPER UNGLAM. dont imagine how i look, cause it really sucks.

came home, KO from 4.30pm - 9.30pm. whhahaha, SO SHIOK. but now, eye swollen. ):

talking with boyfriend now! :D alright, gonna sleep soon! :D tmr got tuition. sighhhhhhhhh.

2008-07-25T23:29:00.002+08:00

mama's down with fever. ): & im worried okay.

oh well but anyway, school was boring today. and i think my class gonna get deep shit by CT alr. hahaha. cause yup, pwned econs. yaojun and i calculated, 27.27272727% turned up for econs tutorial only. dang dang.

and yup. caught a movie today. uh, the show is boring. the X file show. uhm, boring.

AND YES, the most shit thing now is that, i have to sleep asap after sending the file to ms maryam, damn, pw again. but ya, reason why i have to wake up so early tmr is because i'm an embassador for the math and science quiz. rahhhh. must reach at 6.45AM LEHHHHHHHH. oh my tianssssss. DIEEEEEEEEEEE.

okay bye bye i want to sleep ASAP!

2008-07-24T22:21:00.003+08:00

school today was sort of suck. i dont know. cause its a thursday i think. rah.

pw getting on my nerves. its not the project that is, its the people. freaking irritating. but its just ONE person. but fine, since i kept it angry for 2 hours and didnt open my mouth, and dao-ed all the people in my chinese class and geog class, i shall become me again. :D

wait for boyfriend to finish his econs extra lesson. then went for dinner la. walk walk and came home. saw lots of ex-unitians. cause i think they went for peer. and it was raining heavily just now. walked all the way to the 7-11 there then realised i cant walk home. walked to the train station to wait for the bus at the bus stop. the bus took forever to come, i took cab instead.

alright, i'm suffering from the 3-am-lauren syndromes now, thats what seow wei liang calls it, when i sleep at 3am. boyfriend went to sleep alr! hahahah. okay, but i'm really tired so i'll join him. LOL. BYEBYE.

2008-07-23T23:04:00.002+08:00

for some reason i just feel like blogging. cause i'm so tired of PW! esp the WR that i'm working on now. goodness...

pwn-ed school to do wr today. with my mother's permission obviously. ahahaha. so shiok okay. first time i'm feeling joy by practicing procrastination, on sleep! i woke up at 6.30am, then went back to sleep, 8 am then went back to sleep, 9.30 am, then 10.30am, and finally pulled myself off bed at 11.00 am. whahahha. that was a feeling so shiok okay.

and yup. boyfriend pwn school too. but ahem, he was at his house, i'm at my home. hahaha. dont think about whatever. cause we two live sad life lah, both of us were like doing wr. rahhhh.

had nice dinner downstairs. remember me complaining about the food downstairs? sister and i did a stats check today. actually its only just that ONE STALL that is killing, the rest actually have rather nice food, and yup, they have queues. just that, that stall. ahem, dont know what to say about it. my bad encounter with them.

then i went to the mamashop just beside it. should i call it a papashop instead? no female there today leh. okay whatever. so i went in and started taking junkfood and throwing at the counter. when i was finally done, the uncle looked at me, and he said this.

"oh, you finally finish taking already huh, girl?"

omgla. hahah. so paiseh! HAHAHAH. but i didnt care la, cause i didnt want to starve myself when i'm working in the night. whahahahahah! so yes, SGD$7.30 worth of junk food. half is in my stomach alr! hahahah!

alright, back to work. BYEBYE.

2008-07-22T23:01:00.003+08:00

despite the fact of the need to pass up WR by 2359, but i just wanted to blog.

a second time i'm crying in this relationship. if i didnt count it wrongly.

i know you want me to scold you so that you learn your mistake to not rake up the past. but precisely, its because i dont want to rake up the past thats why i dont want to scold you. i just want to let go of it and let it past. i was fuming, i'd say i was really fuming just now. and i didnt understand how come you can laugh about it over the phone, when i called you immediately to seek assurance after receiving that message. that made me feel totally so ridiculous and the only thing i had in mind was, "what the heck is he trying to mean by saying all this shit?".

you msned me, i busy-ed myself.
you called me, i silent-ed the phone.
you smsed me, i exit-ed the message.

i was fuming. i really was. thinking of why you didnt know how i'll react to stuffs like this, thinking of why you didnt know how to keep your promises to me, thinking of why you'd want to break my heart like this. i was waiting for you to realise that my keeping-quiet doesnt mean that i was willing to agree to what you say, i was waiting for you to realise that my keeping-quiet meant that there was a lot of thinking to be done.

but then again i was thinking about why you'd say those stuffs. it came across my mind that you may not be that sensitive enough about this issue than how i am. so fine and well, i gave up that thought. then again i was thinking, how come you'd say those stuffs like it was so easy and you can actually laugh over on the phone. perhaps it didnt just make me feel ridiculous. it really made me think hard think twice, if i was right in telling you in the first place.

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WR by 2359? fat hope. i may even skip school tomorrow.

2008-07-21T22:53:00.002+08:00

ahhh i was blog hopping just now, so i saw what kkf tagged me for, so i decided to do it. (: HANNAH YOU BETTER SEE THAT I'VE DONE IT K.

1) At what age do you wish to marry?
best before 25. dont ask me why. hahah.

2) Study hard or play hard?
its BOTH to me okay. :D

3) Who is the person you trust the most?
lauren/huiyi. :D another one is, boyfriend? & all the good good good good friends.

4) Do you think you have enough confidence?
at times, no.

5) If you can have a dream, what would it be?
i want to quit school and enjoy life, cause life is short.

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yupp, i guess so?

7) What is your goal for this year?
get PROMOTED, what else? change all "U"s to at least "E"s.

8) Do you believe in eternity love?
if eternity ever exist, yes. (:

9) Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
nope. neither have i too.

1o) What feeling do you love the most?
feeling loved la, hahahah.

11) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- he cannot be too handsome/cute, later people snatch
- he should be smarter than me?
- he must make me smile when i'm really sad
- he must love me. (:
- he must abide to the other 10 promises. hahahaha!

12) What feeling do you hate the most?
betrayed, by friends.

13) Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
superly. friends are the ultimate. sometimes i'd say their more important than family.

14) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
for now, to study. but i'd think enjoying life with your loved one is important.

15) Who do you hope to be always there for you?
boyfriend, and all my friendssss. (:

16) Do you believe in God?
i'm a freethinker. you think?

17) Who is your best friend?
why not i tell you my good friends. they are people whom i have at least spoke to for more than 6 hours addded together.

18) Who cares for you the most?
whoever that loves me.

19) Describe the person who tagged you with five words.
kuku, funny, super-camwhoring, madness, HANNAH!

2o) Who do you love most?
:D boyfriend and my friendsssss.

i shall be nice and not demand pple to tag. hahahaha. cause i know all are busy! =X

alright. time to complain. sucks man. i brought my laptop to school but i didnt have the time to use cause of that stupid pcct lesson that spoiled all my plans for today la pleaseeee! hahahah.

pcct for 2 hours okay. madness. =.=

and i think a change to mr toh for tutorial for econs is good. i dont mean that miss nur is not good, but i like mr toh's way of teaching beause he goes through what the lecture talks about. and does comparison between the market structures. omglaaaa. good good.

and great, tmr got 1.5 hours of math tutorial. better chop chop go do my chinese and math tutorials. still gottttt, PWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

rahhhh. irritating shit. pw wr pw wr pw wr pw wr pw wr pw wr pw wr. omgla. irritating shit.

2008-07-20T13:25:00.002+08:00

rah, another weekend. had ODAC farewell party yesterday night at bullion park. which i think it was fun eh! hahahha. but just that, me and syah became the satay people. whahahah. but it was fun it was. :D

uh then after the thing we had group photo. :D ILIKE.

then after that i went t meet jeremy at yck mrt. whahaha. went to ut macs to get some ice cream and walked back t my house la.

after that he went home, luckily he didnt get scold leh. if not i'll be so guilty laaaaaa please. sorry boyfriend! ):

and yes, since roxanne and yfang wants t see. i might as well just post photo here. hahaha. that photo is uh, 2 weeks one day old. people's hair are subjected to changes. hahaha. both are chinese okay.

so yup, this' boyfriend jeremy. :D

okay so i decided i shall start work at 1. then i waited till sometime bf called. talked till 2. and now i still havent started. so i shall off my comp now and start doing my tuition homework. tuition starts at 6.30 later la omg. hahah. byebye.

-gone to make ebuuuu gone. :D

2008-07-18T22:32:00.002+08:00

i just realised one thing. my nephews' outdoor cap is... POLO RALPH LAUREN & BURBERRY. omgla, i almost wanted to faint when i saw that super familiar horse. then i thought, since the younger one has prl one, the brother one shouldnt be too cheap too huh. THEN, it saw, big big big big big big sign BURBERRY. faint lah.

went for the PTD today. i was so super scared that my dad'll faint at my results lah, cause its just " E B U U U U ". cool right? ebuuuu, LOL. sounds like some, idk what. hahahaha. so i was complaining to boyfriend all the way outside the squash court about some stuffs, and then my dad suddenly called me.

"where are you huh?"
"uh i waiting for you all to come in school ma! you all here already meh?"
"ya, i at the hall alr."
"WHAT? HALL?!"
"uh." (puts down the phone)

and i ran off without telling boyfriend first. =X hahahahaha. then after that they were waiting & i didnt want to wait with them. went out to talk to boyfriend first. then ya, my dad called me and i went in to wait cause yiting was infront.

the talking session was like, quite heng for me i think. :D but i'm determined to work for better results alr. cannot let myself slack and drop. and boyfriend, if i'm an obstacle in your life, tell me okay? i'll do the necessary, even though i'm not very willing to make those changes.

and yup, went to this place behind the sembawang park for dinner. eh the place is nice okay. hahahah. got beach and all the nice scenery. :D so nice lorh. but one thing stupid, it had me connected to the damn MY MAXIS, malaysia connection. ): and i was smsing boyfriend then okay. rahhhhh! hahahhaha.

alright lah, i think i gonna sleep alr. timecheck now is 10.42 pm. boyfriend gonna call? idk. hahahah. i gonnna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep man. i slept at 2.30am this morning cause of that stupid germany presentation. ): so i gonna sleep, NOW. :D BYEBYE.

2008-07-18T02:14:00.002+08:00

alright since i'm online now and i'm waiting for boyfriend to finish on his presentation, i shall just blog. about what, idk. cause this is just random that i typed my blog url and dang, next i wanted to blog alr. whahahahah.

its like, 2.15 am? WOW. cool man. cool shit. tmr i not gonna be late for school but i gonna pon mass pe, thats for sure, i need to sleep in the library man. i dont care. i need to sleep. or i gonna die of all the panda eyes and all the lack of sleep.

and the presentation sucks lah seriously. i mean, wow, photos send at an amazing rate which, i guess the snail is faster than it la please! omgla, its just damn slow and uh, error in transfers.

rah.

projectwork. something else that i can rant about. i got so fed up when i received the checked WR today. my goodness. he was the one who said that its creative and innovative and all the shit. and now, one comment is enough to kill us ALL okay. its just like what the toot. rahhhhh. just pw sucks la okay. i mean, i've been waiting for a good night sleep but apparently after i came back from germany, no more good night sleeps! ):

oh well, this is life
and it sucks.

what to do? ):

2008-07-16T22:07:00.002+08:00

you know what! its a wednesday! OMG. wednesdays are lessons damn slack day.

but uh, ODAC is damn shiok today. finally we have some decent PT session. whooosh. the duckwalking still having effects on my knee, as usual, they tend to shift like equilibriums, OKAY LAME.

boyfriend got scolding. make me feel damn guilty now lah! ):

okay, lots of stuffs to do, i dont know why.

2008-07-14T22:54:00.002+08:00

& yes i've to say its one big big big big big big load off my shoulder after telling you that okay boyfriend. i'm serious. like, whatever i typed in that sms was the truth la, nothing else to hide from you alr! :D and i cant believe, i cried again. stupid. your girlfriend's EQ damn high one k.

whahahaha.

and ODAC was stupidly long today and made me starve like madness okay. TOTALLY MAD. i've been like tahan-ing since the start of it. but trying my best to keep myself busy by writing all the stuffs. LOL. and it ended at, 7.10? idk, but its somewhere there. omglaaaa. faint hor please!

the assembly talk was quite boring, but uh, the part about the image thingy was still quite alright lah, can la, can tahan cause jessica and i were talking about it. LOL. at leastttttt.

and uh, what happened before that. oh, gp. KO. knock out. hahaa, i slept like no end. but i handed up that essay that i felt so much sense of achievements okay! hahahah. cause its one full paper 2 pages of my nice and neat handwriting, for once for an essay. LOL.

lesson before that. OH, chinese. LAME SHIT. yeogimsng is FOREVER LAME.

uh, geog was scary. cause half the time i was so scared miss yeo will come and ask me for all the hell load reasons why i pwned her lesson last week. and mdm aisyah (if thats how you spell) havent been in school for some time, wonder if she's really okay. sort of quite worried cause she pregnant and she keeps falling sick. and somehow missing her VERY ENTHU geog lectures. hahaha.

uh and yes, i gotta go off soon cause there's a lot of stuffs waiting for me to be done. stuffs like geog tutorial for tmr, uh, chem notes and all the tutorials and reading and lalala. all the stuffs. and oh, ODAC stuffs (FOREVER) and hmmmm, tuition homework!

ilovemyboyfriend.:D

2008-07-12T15:58:00.001+08:00

sigh. i gave the tickets away. so yup, its another studying day.

just got home from unity. went to see see look look the band cause there's National Band Competition there. magdalene, jieying, aloysius and raj were there too. hahahah. had some random talking lah and all the shit.

explored raj's wallet like madness. WHAHAHAH. i took all photos of his cards that had his face and i actually really intended to post them all here. but oh well, i'm just too nice. so i decided not too. actually its just a waste of my blog picture space! hahahah. those are just photos that you can laugh at. esp the passport photo that he took after shaving his hair! hahah!

and yes yes. sucks man. tuition starts in an hour's time. damn. if not for the tuition, i'll be at somewhere else happily man. )))))))))))))))))): dang it.

rahhh.

2008-07-11T18:55:00.002+08:00

awwwwwww. i miss boyfriend. ): although i just saw like one and a half hour ago.

and yesssssssss. i finally passed up that stupid gpp that our group has been slogging for, and that wr that i didt really even read through at all! hahahahah. but weekend homework is like omglaaaaa.

and omglaa. my dad just came home with GARY CAO'S CONCERT TICKETS FOR TMR. OMGLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. omglaaaaaaaaaaa. omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omgo omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg. i'm SUPER HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPY NOW. woh my god!

2008-07-11T00:49:00.002+08:00

COME ON MAN, get a life lah seriously.

damnnit. pw is damn sucky okay. i got to really repeat and keep saying until i'm happy with it. damnnn! GPP sucks and i just finished it only.

boyfriend said sleeping no later than 0145. dang la, jia lat. how man?! WR havent do laaaaaa. woh my god. i just need to rant like madness. and i'm just staring at the stack of PW notes, my printed GPP draft that came back and all the other pw documents.

awwwmygod. its damn sian okay. omgomgomgomg. and no one knows how to do conclusion for WR! luckily bear bear is typing out the sample conclusion for WR for me to see. if not i sure gonna die. LIKE MAD.

2008-07-10T15:51:00.005+08:00

tell me why do tears burst out when you're neither sad nor angry. tell me. i need to get it sorted out.

i took a train home from yishun just now, managed to get a seat and started wiping my tears that fall down unknowingly. i dont know why this happened but i dont know why i cried too.

i mean its not your fault that i found those stuff in your bag, but.

i'm not sad, i'm not angry at you. i'm not really. i still intended to give you your real present before i left for yewtee. and i mean it.

but my emotions controlled me. i'm sorry.

and listening to "why" still cures me the best, i dont know why.

.

i dont want you to clear those things just because they're from your ex. i dont expect you to do that, because i know you have your own reasons and i'll understand them. just like how i'm rather reluctant to change my current bag because of him. i just felt sorry about digging your past and i didnt know how to express it. i understand that we both have our own freedom to choose. i know that, really. it doesnt matter what happened, what present is what that matters. alright?

2008-07-07T13:23:00.002+08:00

i dont mean to complain but ya. the food from the coffeeshop downstairs totally just sucks. ever since after the renovation. oh man. it just looks nice but uh, give me back the not so nice coffeeshop but with WONDEFUL FOOD! ):

so i'm not going to be lazy next time, i'll just walk out to yewtee and buy food. NO MATTER HOW HUNGRY I AM. EVEN IF I'M GOING TO DIE OF GASTRICS ANYTIME.

i dont know how many times i asked HOW MUCH IS THE FOOD.
i dont know how many times she want to ask me IF I WANTED CHILLI.
i dont know how many times she want me to repeat that i want the MILK.

zzzzz.

wols.

2008-07-06T23:31:00.002+08:00

i'm trying to run away from what that is happening. how come out of a sudden everything seems to be changing? how come out of a sudden after something is accepted that everything else that happens is turning to a bad side? how come? why?

Secondhand Serenade - Why lyrics

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Its harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...

I should've known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me...

-

yea. why? why are stuffs like this happening? i've always said that i'm always ready when this knda stuffs happen and i'll be able to laugh it off evenutally. but when stuffs really happen and when everything reveals to become what you dont wish to see. what you do is, to escape.

i guess only listening to this song a hundred thousand times will make me feel better.
i guess its only when i have all the time to myself and i enjoy the time on my own.
i guess only when i dont have anymore odac stuffs to worry about i'll feel better.
i guess only when i dont have to do anymore shit jobs for pw anymore.

i have too many if only(s).
but i know i've got you.

2008-07-06T21:29:00.001+08:00

happy birthday to boyfriend. (:

2008-07-05T11:01:00.002+08:00

OMG I'M DAMN ANNOYED AND IRRITATED AND RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

YES I WANT TO RAHH LIKE MADNESS OKAY.
PW IS KILLING ME.
I MEAN I DONT MIND IF PEOPLE GIVE ME THEIR STUFFS LATE.
BUT CAN YOU JUST FREAKINGLY RESPOND TO ME EMAIL/SMS.

ITS DARN IRRITATING YOU KNOW.
I'VE MADE IT SO CLEAR THAT YOU MUST GIVE IT TO ME ASAP.
IRRITATING SHIT OKAY.

COME ON LA, YOU WANT TO SLACK, YOU THINK I DONT WANT TO?
DAMN!
ITS JUST DAMN IRRITATING AND ANNOYING K.

IRRITATING SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

2008-07-02T21:39:00.002+08:00

and here comes july (although it was alr here yesterday) and i'm trying hard to tell myself to mug cause promos coming in 2.5 months. and its a nightmare. ):

block test is a nightmare.
tuesdays are nightmares.

my sweetdreams all flew away. and i'm going to find them back again. :D

2008-07-01T22:14:00.002+08:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

pw is damn overwhelming. gotta really do and do it well now, too much to do and left it untouched for so long. and getting rusty and cant even remember what was in the gpp. plus the gpp due and WR due. i want to die man. even after the allocation i think i still got a lot to do. rahhhhhh.

i U-ed math by 2 marks. rather irritated cause can anyone tell me why 18 divded by 6 is 2. tell me. that cost me some dumb 2 marks k. dont want to talk. and new math tutor, mr sean tan. i like his way of teaching, although its very secondary school but i think thats how i can understand.

chem lecture was a total bore today.

just, all i can remember is that pw is damn chiong today. plus stephanie didnt come, and that makes our group ALWAYS short of one person. but its okay, i hope it doesnt carry on. just hope. hopes are great. :D

i gonna start studying everyday. and i mean it. :D gotta go studying! BYEEE~

2008-06-30T21:43:00.002+08:00

first day of school, for term 3. i expected better. i was super tireddddddd.

cause i went to bed at 0020 today, but i only fell asleep at 0400. ):

and yup, it was still okay. quite cool leh, the matrix thingy for the math lecture today. hahahah, the Rref thingy, which i just upgraded my GC. :D hahahha. super cool leh. whahahhahahaha.

and i felt like i kena stalk for econs lecture lah. hahahhaha. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. scaring me by telling me who i was sitting with, but yet i cant see you until almost till the end of the lecture. hahahahha. DUMB BUMP LAH YOU.

then uh, chinese. wha super happy. but i'm unhappy about getting a B okay. only yjc set chinese standard for so high (and make me feel like whacking). if not my percentage was an A okay! whahahaha. and because the compo that i wrote, i was super not confident at all. but aye who knew i got 80% for that compo k. i was like so happy.

GP. :D (cause we're not supposed to say anything)

pcct.

ODAC. =.= new teachers. i've got no comments k. and everything is in a mess, everyone else pon tanging. sigh. what to do, EXTRA PT ON WEDNESDAY LORH. :) people, skip somemore k. billy, bully me somemore k, i mark ZERO on the attendance you sure die like one hell no hell i tell you! :D

came home and i went jogging. i did my 200 sit ups today. and 6 minutes of simon chair. :D

and i'm super sleepy and tired now, hoping, tmr to get back hmmmm, geog and math? sigh. please give me at least subpass for both. cause chemistry is defintely all about U alr. :D

2008-06-29T22:04:00.003+08:00

yes i went out to "his" house today. "he's" my boyfriend today.

popo cooked black pepper chicken. and pork chop. and ...

my long missed 3-year-never-eat POTATO SALAD!

charmaine says its the greedy face.

i'm happy okay! :D

-

havent seen her and popo for so long la please! and i didnt know popo cooked my share for dinner so i stayed for dinner and called back saying i'm not eating, or else, i'll be like chopped mince meat today. HAHAHAH.

yup, and she intended to buy nds after seeing mine cause i was BUSY playing until i really say down and started replanning the odac sms relay. hahaah.

eat dinner and yup. sat down and watched Aquamarine. nice show leh! hahhah. everytime i go to her house i'll end up watching one movie then leave! hhahah.

and yes since i'm back home now, loads of stuffs to do. like, packing all the mceg notes back to where they come from. uh, packing the normal school file for tmr and onwards, and all the clothes that're in a mess on my bed now. plus ironing school u. and taking clothes out of the washing machine to hang. oh dear, thats a lot! ):

(i'm trying to tell myself i'm not interested in you but everytime i see you online but we dont talk, i just feel so odd.)

2008-06-28T23:19:00.004+08:00

with my love (after block test), MARIOOOO!

he's so cute right!

star wars! my love ever since sec 3 V-CAMP! :D

black VS white. :D

you know, the leader actually fell down. =.=

magnificent, isnt it!

and i really like it! :D

HEE HEE HEE HEE.

one of the cute ones. HAHAH.

-

and yup, i was at the Singapore Toy & Comic Exhibition 2008 today, at Suntec City Convention Centre Hall 603. okay i think i sound like some promoter. LOL. but it was rather fun lah, although there were lots of people and ya, as usual it gets really squeezy.

AND! nds got the kungfu panda game! omg it just look like PO as MARIO and the setting like the kungfu area. hahahah. looks fun lah, cause there's this little boy playing. and i wanted to play but he was hogging to the damn nds. hahahahaha.

uh then went to the STARWARS exhibition there. its so WOW. really wow. like wow. hahahahaha. i've got nothing to say but wow. HAHAHAH.

uh then, walked around and went out. eh, to the turkish restaurant. then the comparison made was, germany's turkish food is still nicer. LOL. idk why but its like a bit odd odd here leh~ hahahahahhaha. maybe its because they dont serve what germany turkish food had!

went to carrefour for dinner. ate sushi! :D

headed to bugis by foot. bought my shirts! at 2 for $20. hahahah. i super surely regret not buying the SUPER MARIO one i must say! cause i'm really in love with super mario hahahhahahaaahahhahahaha!

and, walked to orchard. had mac icecream and errrrr. took train home. hahahhahaha.

& i've got to recommend something! IF YOU LOVE "KUNGFU PANDA" LIKE ME, AND LOVE THE MUSIC IN IT. this is it man! click HERE to go and listen to the soundtrack, its SUPERRR NICE. :D

2008-06-28T00:46:00.002+08:00

yes lets welcome our 264th post on this blog. uh probably about the 1000th+++ post for all my blogs. anyway, its not a big day, BUT BLOCK TESTS ARE OVER. GREEEEAAAAAT! :D i totally love and live and enjoy this kinda feeling man! just stay at home and ROT. technically rot.

but yup. i gonna be so happy for a while cause i bought a puma pullover that was on 30% discount! please i was so happy when i saw that big red 30% on the price tag man! i swear! HAHAHAHA.

oh yes, and i have to say that, MAC DELIVERY is like, super efficient and finally they are giving me what i want! hahahha. they came like, 10 minutes after my call, and my grilled chicken foldover was like YES, WITHOUT ONIONS AND EXTRA SAUCE. :D i was super happy please! :D and also, not leaving out my favourite corn cup with lots of margarine! :D

and yup, what else. my room is in a mess now. like debris avalanches where lahar will form if i add water. but its true, my paper will all turn wet and they will be a gone case for my whole jc life. hahaah. and that will be really terrible and destructive, just like lahar. okay great. block test is over lah dumb shit. hahahah!

i want:
- to go and watch "10 promises to my dog"
- shoppinggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
- september to come faster so i can change phone
- (a lot more ... )

rahhhhhhhh. i'm feeling so lost out of a sudden. omg thats super random but yes its true! i just talked to him like moments ago and its beginning to feel! SHIT! hahahhahah. i cant do this to myself man! come on man, dont be such a dumb shit and ya, stop thinkinggg!

OH YES I WANT TO COMPLAIN I WANT TO COMPLAIN I WANT TO COMPLAIN! dang it man! cause i fell asleep last night about 2++am after chionging SUPER MARIO on my nds, i wanted to get good rest and MAYBE consider shopping with ys at town. BUT THEN, that a** called me after his exam WHICH WAS AT 9.47am. oh dang it man, i picked up his call then he said "orh okay lorh never mind bye bye".

omg, i almost wanted to die cause i cant sleep back at all la, then i went to call the mac delivery. and lalala, you should know what happened in the day later. hahahahhaha. alrightie, its late. shall get to sleep soon.

THERE IS BUFFET TMR~. :D

2008-06-23T20:38:00.005+08:00

awww my god. okay i decided to just blog a while since i'm online and some documents are still pending to print and load. and i just took the damn frigging chem test online. i just anyhow click and it said the answers are submitted. i bet miss lim will faint at my answers.

i need SHIFU to save me for block test. if this shifu cant make it, then i guess i've to look for this.

MASTER WU GUI WILL DO THE JOB. ):

and yes i think i've been too stressed about block test every night. cause i get odd dreams every other night and i wake up like as though i'm totally mentally unsound. and this sucks lah k. ):

2008-06-18T00:10:00.003+08:00

yuppie. i'm online again, but my intentions were actually just to check mail.

and you know what! i got the free tickets for the ACUVUE privilege card for movie this thurs at cine (kungfu panda & the incredible hulk). so yes whoever who is free to go or you want the both tickets just tell me okay, i'll pass you the thingy and you go collect and watch the movie, but thats provided i cant find pple to go with me. :D

and yes the cats downstairs are irritating. stop your damn screeching or whatever you call that, its super irritating.

& idk if i'm going study tmr. rather irritating, that stupid tys never reply me. OI REPLY ME LEH. rahhhhh. hahahahhahaha.

've been on great terms with joy nowadays and yes, this' my target this time round. (: and i dont want to think too much about the brown-num-bag-guy-who-does-w_ alr. no point thinking. look ahead girl! :D

alright i shall go sleep soon or joy will start nagging at me all over again and ya, hahahaha. dont wnat to continue on. :D byeee~

2008-06-16T20:50:00.000+08:00

la la la la la la la. la la la la la. master wu gui. okay random. bye!

2008-06-15T22:12:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG. I WANT TO GO TO THE F.I.R.'S CONCERT IN AUGUST! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.

that was pretty random. caught KUNGFU PANDA today, and its a nice show i'd say! :D obviously i went studying after that, as usual. hahahahhaha.

THIS IS A DAMN NICE SHOW. MASTER WU GUI~

and i started emoing when i was looking at my present brown colour NUM bag. cause, yeah, uh of the person who went to change and choose this bag with me luh. hahaha. trying to make myself feel happy lah. but, i dont think i can do much leh~ smile lorh, what else. and whats worse now the tv is showing some item about yeah, uh. w_. so it made me like relate even more lah! WP. damn bad feeling. ): & i went to look at the chat log, rahhhh, made me feel nothing but worse!

2008-06-14T21:47:00.003+08:00

i agreee that i'm a pig. really i am. ahhhh. but then i call it no choice okay!

like i typed yesterday that i drank milk tea and cant sleeeeeeep. and i really didnt sleep until this morning 5 am. had to wake up to help take care of my nephews. OF COURSE I KO-ED AFTER THAT. which was about 11 am. wha really ah, faint can. faint.

i slept from 11 to 2. woke up by some call but i picked it up and went back to sleep. and slept until 4.30pm. DAMNNNNNN SHIOKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

i need this type of sleeping session! REALLY! this is damn shiok lah. and i only ate one meal today. luckily i went downstairs to buy cup noodles and campbell soup. in case i wake up later when my stomach is growling, i got something to eat. :D

right. i shall go off soon. do some math and read a bit of geog i want to sleep alr. super tiredddd. ):

2008-06-14T02:50:00.002+08:00

guess i was kinda bored that i went to my past few blogs to read my old old old posts. ahahahah. and i can still laugh at myself. i think i'm mad. YES MAD. hahahah but i think its a good idea to separate blogs on relationships eh! HAHAHAH. sounds mad but ya, thats how i am now. and i just told my ex-boss that i dont mind giving tuition for a primary school kid. i'm out of my mind, but i dont care. i want that extra income and it'll be easy. if everything goes well, it'll start after my block test. yes, after my block test which is 2 weeks later. and just talked to kukfriend online just now and she made me feel better, idk why. hahahahaha. this is mad. but i'm so going to read chemistry notes and make sure i understand one chapter then i go and sleep. if not i'll go and fall asleep at 3.30. yes three thirty. cant sleep now cause i drank milk tea just now. hahah. its odd but ya, i fall asleep terribly when i drink coffee but i can keep awake one whole night when i drink milk tea. and i think this whole chunk of typing, no one will read cause its too irritating to even see this ONE WHOLE BIG CHUNK OF WORDS. but i like, its my blog. so i gonna do and type and do what i like. and i realised, revision was a word that was so common in blog posts last time. was i really so hardworking? hahaha. i'm beginning to feel, ODD! hahahhaha. madness. bye!

2008-06-14T01:38:00.002+08:00

what can i say? my tears run down like razorblades. but now its over, its over, why is it over? we had a chance to make it, but now its over. i wish that i can take it but, its over, over.

that was just random. i'm not in a relationship with any guy but its just the song that i'm listening to. but one fact that is true, i'm depressed. got a feeling that my block test is gone, over as in gone case. i feel so helpless.

i want to study, i know i need to study but like i said, i still havent settled down yet. and this feeling is damn suck. ): was just telling kukufriend about it then she said i'm cute. rahhh, hannah I AM NOT!

righttttttttt. reason why i'm online at this odd time, like aloysius randomly asked me why i so late then come online, is because i'm feeling super depressed. cause ya, dont feel like telling the whole world so i'm not going to type it out. but ya, i just feel damn depressed. hope this depressedness dont overwhelm me too much, at least for now.

and yes, i seriously dont feel like sleeping. i feel like studying all over again but then i'll be sacrificing my sleep. OH COME ON HUIYI/LAUREN, THIS ISNT GERMANY ANYMORE, DAMN YOU PLEASE WAKE UP AND STOP THINKING OF THE OPPOSITE TIME. DAMN.

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

2008-06-13T16:16:00.002+08:00

another day that i woke up with my previous night's plan interrupted. i'm getting real irritated with myself that i cant settle down and start mugging and preparing for block test. which is what i'm supposed to be doing like weeks ago. ever since back from Germany, i havent really been studying except for tuition, but only math i'm doing it, i'm not going to let myself sink down. no, i cant be so stupid.

like what i said yesterday, procrastination. i'm going to blog and off my laptop now. and yes, after my iPod syncs, i can go off since i've printed what i'm supposed to be doing for this whole holiday. no more laziness girl!

2008-06-12T22:42:00.002+08:00

i feel like a kuku today. ): doing kuku stunts and fooled by others! ): rahhhhhhhh. oh my god, and i just got reminded that i've damn lots of stuffs to do. SIGH.

as usual, procrastinating when my laptop is on. and i intend to plan my night BADLY, so that even if its interrupted like yesterday, it'll be as bad, so i wouldn't feel any worse.

i have to get these done before i head off for weekends:
- last article for reflection log & pass up tmr
- math tuition homework
- LMS math work
- chem extreme reading
- geog, FLIPPING. :D (miss yeo will chop me if she sees this)

went to the IT show today, rather disappointing i'd say, but its what i think cause i'm not so into these stuffs. and then hanged around with yuyongakaharrey and ivan around marina square and suntec. then i went home. yes, i have a sad life today. yijiang knows it all. HAHA.

rightttttt. i gonna start with my badly planned night now. byeee~

2008-06-12T01:48:00.001+08:00

it doesnt feel good when original plans are interrupted and now, your stomach is growling in the middle of the night right! AHHHHHHHHH.

2008-06-11T14:34:00.002+08:00

rightttttttttt. was damn multi-tasking just now lah! blogging on the odac blog about the sms relay system. then was friendster messaging hannah, then friendster commenting multi people. smsing friends. listening and singing and screaming songs.

i need to complete:
- econs reflection log TODAY
- math tuition homework TODAY
- chemistry reading
- geog flipping.

hahaha, priority level goes down, very obviously. LOL

2008-06-11T12:26:00.003+08:00

DID YOU SEE IT MAN. MONICA LOVES ME.

hahahhah. i was really happy when i saw that! you'll be special okay monica, i reply you here! :D hahahah. hope you're really fine in HK you know! hahahah. no problem for the white book, although i really took pains to complete it from finding the photos by digging out the hdd in my old comp and printing the photos and cutting and thinking of the storyline and YES, I FINALLY DID IT~ hahahah. you sure must love it k! :DDDDD

yes, i will tell you if there is anything that'll obviously piss me off! DONT WORRY OKAY! oh yes, i'll email you my address asap okay! even better if you mass send us your new home address then i reply you with my house address! :D

I LOVE YOU OKAY!

2008-06-10T00:07:00.003+08:00

i just got home from the band camp at unity. and i just suddenly realised how important this bunch of people are to me, cause there were too much laughter and tears together with them. and i have to say, i'm actually damn pissed off that my parents dont allow me to stay over at the camp. for whatever reason that they have, i still think that i'm being much grounded at home ever since i'm back from Germany. even they were asking me, "huh you mean you're not staying today?" and i can only give that helpless look that says "YES I CANNOT STAY OVER."

that me, was lost i think. i really missed it too much. life now is too hectic that i need to escape to my old good friends. but they dont understand and there is also no point in telling them cause whatever i say gets hit back and i get nothing in the end, so there is just no point. and i dont see why i have to think of lame excuses to make them allow me to stay over after the reunion dinner tmr (which i may not be even going because i think i might be going to the 122 party). but just.

i feel like a bird who lost its wings and i can no longer fly, like how i used to be. and this feeling is too overwhelming. i dont know what they are thinking off. what i want, is just my freedom to be with my friends (like how i used to have) again. thats not a too big request i guess. i just lost that freedom after i'm back. and this makes me feel damn idiotic.

wherever i go, whatever i do, you poke into it like forever your business. i'm sick of this!
(however emo is not the word i'm going to use.)

2008-06-09T00:21:00.003+08:00

yes and i mean it. :D hahahaha.

life has been like, so alright i guess. except for the fact that i cant really get enough sleep until last night till this morning! hahaha. cause i slept like 14 hours!

!! right!

haah. but i'm so much better after that lah! LOL. alright, i shall sleep soon.

2008-06-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

lets start this anew. :D

2008-06-07T00:50:00.002+08:00

this was what i saw in Germany. and it reminded me of you.

-

& i was talking to them just now. telling them that i feel like closing my blog. just suddenly felt that there was no point in blogging anymore. and i felt like there is no point. even when i was telling them that, i wasnt even sure if i was really talking the real thing that i want to. sounded mad. but i have been thinking about it since i was in Germany. and yes, i really have the feeling of closing. just feel that my life is a bore, and its no point.

2008-05-27T06:56:00.001+08:00

hello people! i'm at changi airport now just outside my boarding gate! YAY> i'm going OVERSEAS. yaaayness.

see you people soon ya! :D dont miss me! :DDDDDDD

2008-05-25T11:38:00.003+08:00

went friendster hopping just now. read about this friend whom i used to be very close with. but seeing her being successful and happy now makes me feel happy for her too. since she's doing what she likes, then all the best to her. cause i think she can do it. (:

and i'm freaking pissed off. i cant even find the correct word that can describe my feelings now. it was supposed to be a meeting to go out. and ya, everything was sailing so smoothly, until your black face came along the way. and its always your trademark black face that spoils everything else. and its damn irritating. seriously i mean irritating, irritating.

cyy is a big liar. :D

2008-05-19T22:53:00.007+08:00

i seriously dont know what shiying is doing.

i was aiming at the ADIDAS, nowhere else.

leefeng's way too tall.

now's sarah's turn!

weihao the emo kid.

monica! :D

bites. LOL.

with the prom queen, our proudness. LOL.

for the benefit of charmaine phoon sm. kangyi, :D.

kangyi's (in hokkien) am chio-ing.

thats rather normal.

i dont know what's this for.

monica, act cool sia.

see, teoyuansheng's a glutton.

twists with sarah.

i'm an idiot, i know.

totally.

with cheryl.

aileen, iris and monica.

licks and bites.

monica.

think sarah's trying to bombard my nds.

with cyy. he loves my bag lah, =.=

camwhoring with it.

lots of pimples you see on yy's face. WHOOPS.

the 4 kukus who met up randomly for dinner.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALOYSIUS! :D

-

i guess those pictures spoke many many thousand words. went buffet with 4/7 pple for lunch. then randomly met the URC for dinner cause all of us were in town. LOL.

i'm happy if you are, remember?

2008-05-14T23:40:00.002+08:00

badly taken photo. but ECP was manifested with YJCians today.

thats yaojun and weiliang, on their double bike. hahah, CAUSE WL DONT KNOW HOW TO RIDE.

at the Bedok Jetty. if you realised, its the CBD with Singapore Flyer.

honourable destination. :D

came across this beautiful place, and i wanted to fly up, but cant leh.

and reached OBS campsite

actually thats not all. but because NO ONE BROUGHT CAMERA TODAY, so i took random photos with my phone only loh. hahha. and its fun. really fun.

after the jogathon, we went to Burger King to eat, and obviously all of us ate like pigs, cause ya, we were tired and all i think. went to rent the bikes immediately after that.

the we took the left side of the ECP. went on further and further until the Bedok Jetty, then we finally realised, sihui, stephanie, jessica and kaixin were gone. so yup, we wanted to wait for them at the jetty, but it was getting a bit late, so we went further ahead to the left while bear bear and weiliang went back to the bike kiosk to look for AO cause she wanted to join us.

went further and further. OBS campsite, Water-Venture and National Sailing Centre or something like that. dead end alr, so we cycled back.

met bear, wl and AO on the way back, so we said we meet at the bike kiosk, all of us thought that we had to return by 7.30. so all chionged and ya, got back to the kiosk at 7.15. since there was still time, we went to the right side this time.

the side where i went with my favourite clique just not long ago this year. cycling down the path made me recollect loads of memories that happened that day along that route, and i guess that was the reason why i kept first in the line cause i wanted to ride down the same route again.

but ya anyway, then later kaixin caught up with me to tell me to start U-TURNING cause the time was gonna be up pretty soon. then i was like, quite reluctant but still, u-turned and ushered everyone back to the kiosk.

as usual, i got back to the kiosk, first again. then i didnt realised that the 2 guys i kept staring at were bear's friends. like super malu. but then i become high again, cause muscles were aching like madness.

went to macs to eat some nonsense, and after much discussions and disputes, i took a cab to Bedok MRT Station with kaixin and thereafter took train home. and like i said, my muscles were REALLY ACHING.

kaixin got off at er, i cant remember, but she was gonna change train to travel upwards back to admiralty. so i continued my journey of travelling to jurong east. and the worst part came. cause i had to change train to come back to yew tee, SOOOOO, bobian no choice cannot choose have to change to the middle platform train. OBVIOUSLY THERE WERE SO MANY LCS (LOW CLASS SINGAPOREANS) AROUND PUSHING PUSHING AND PUSHING.

never mind, then i got onto the train, NO SEATS. i was like, fine cause people have OT and thats why they come back at a later time. then i stood there, trying to tahan my muscle aches. THEN THERE IS THIS LCS, keep standing next to me pushing me, BUT THERE ARE LOTS OF SPACES ON THE OTHER SIDE. rahhh. so pissed off lah please.

luckily i found a seat at bukit batok. or i really gonna scream in the train.

got a super bad feeling that i gonna get it like one hell from miss nur tmr during econs tutorial cause i didnt bother to do the essay. and yes, tiredness. gonna sleep so pretty soon, cant be bothered, you call that.

2008-05-13T00:03:00.004+08:00

my love, seriously.

fake boyfriend 2 i think.

again. we were camwhoring lah~

pull your ears.

uh, act cute gang. LOL

random.

and i saw kangyi at cckmac! :D

of course and my dearie wanjia! :D

delwin's talk time.

ELMO WORLD!

act cute. =.=

DO-RE-MI

SHHHH, delwin says.

UNGLAMNESS.

idiotic, i know. HAHAHAH.

this' boyfriend3.

peggy looking boredly at the food, while waiting for the 2 JJ princes.

going crazy, seriously.

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had a tiring day in school. doing geog tutorial now. hahaha.

oh yes, i love them. seriously. :D some glam and unglam photos, as usual. :D

alright, gotta go do work! BYE~ (:

2008-05-11T15:30:00.002+08:00

mothers' day's unhappy.

intentions are not known. i just wanted to get the ingredients to make jelly so that, we can eat for today and ya, get happy and stuffs. but obviously, getting home a little later than 12 is getting a big problem, but i dont see it as one.

i'm not freakingly cinderella, i wouldnt change into something else if i didnt get home before 12. and the thing is that, i didnt go out to go and play you know. hallo, i went to study until like 9 plus lah. nonsensical. obviously i had to eat dinner right. after dinner then went to get the jelly stuffs what.

then why make a super big whoooha about this. calling up the whole family to rush me to go home. HALLO, its the damn bus that i waited for at least 10 minutes lah.

what the fcuk.

2008-05-09T23:44:00.002+08:00

okay. i love today. had napfa. and i love my results. had super camwhoring day today. and i super love it. just, everything is so good! :D okay, and i gonna upload all those lame photos, when i get all of them for today.

i just love today. 122 rocks. :D

-seventeen to go, ...

2008-05-08T23:30:00.002+08:00

躺在空地上的我，原本想要享受一下这种宁静的感觉。
这种宁静对我来说十分舒服，所以在不知不觉中，我睡着了。
我也不知道过了多久的时间以后，天空突然下起了滂沱大雨。
但是已经睡着的我却一点感觉也没有，醒后才发觉自己已不在空地上了。

2008-05-08T23:24:00.004+08:00

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2008-05-08T22:15:00.003+08:00

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2008-05-07T21:11:00.003+08:00

GREAT. PRESENTING TO YOU, THE LOVE OF MY DAY! :D

NATHANIEL! whahahaha. he's SOOOOOOOOOOOO cute.

roy loi, okay, maybe i should say, LI FEI HUI.

thats NAT! :D :D :D :D

if you remember, they're the 3 coloured beans in some sing song show.

with NAT and STEPHANIE! WOOOTS!

lastly. my second love for the day, JAY. wow. i think he's super cute also.

i didnt even intend to blog at all. cuase i was so tired i fell asleep on the sofa just now, until i saw that, HEY I HAVE PW TO DO. thats the real reason with i switched on my laptop.

tmr's gonna be a killer day.

& i had a bad day until i saw nat! WHAAAAAA. i said, he's the love for today! :D

2008-05-04T13:47:00.002+08:00

when they were playing Armenian Dances. (i think)

see the orange lady? yes, its our dear CT miss lim! :D

Yishun Junior College Symphonic Band.

david and me! (just an attempt to make halos appear in the picture)

beiyu & me! yaayness. :D

yup. and i think sihui and i got a bit too high when we were singing the college song. a bit siao. really. ahahhaha. after that its like super malu lah.

hmmm, made a new friend, from ctg 124 huiling. hahaha. she's seow-mummy's friend i think. hahaha, from the photography society, and her garlic toasts are nice! YUM YUM.

took bus with seow-mummy, huiling, jessica, sihui and yiting to khatib. and we went macs!

ate and all and went home! HAHAHHAHA.

2008-05-03T12:44:00.004+08:00

whahahaha. this' not last night or something. some nights ago. & yes, its monica! hahahaha. so nice to meet up with her for a dinner, but samuel came along too! ): one thing sad is that she's leaving on the day i'm coming back to singapore. alright, sob like as much as i can lah please, SUPER SAD. ):

& yes i havent been blogging. whaahaha. i wanted to, but when i saw this page to type my blog, i suddenly felt like i didnt want to blog anymore! LOL

went out with some girls yesterday. its not like shopping lah please, its called running session. where ever we were going we've been running around lah huh. like nonsense like that, SO UNGLAM LO! lolol. image la image. ahahahhaah.

alright, i have 7 things lined up to do, by tmr 11am. punishment is that if i dont do them, i'm gonna have to run 2.4 km X 2 in the stadium tmr night! so i better go do now. BYEBYE!

(er, i'm very hungry! ): )

2008-04-27T16:13:00.001+08:00

OKAY, i have beeen slacking since just now. really like slacking since i blogged.

& i found some magic school bus audio clip! (: which i super love, but im rather sad cause i cant get to download it, cause i want it to be my ringtone!

ahhh imagine, RIDE ON THE MAGIC SCHOOL BUS *BEEP BEEP* as your ringtone while in the mrt. WHA SUPER COOL. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2008-04-27T13:47:00.002+08:00

PLEASE PEOPLE! DONT GO AND WASTE YOUR MONEY WATCHING "FUNNY GAMES US" CAUSE ITS REALLY A WASTE OF MONEY, WASTING YOUR TIME!

dropping the eggs. =.=

quarrelling over the broken eggs and rudeness.

trying to go into the house?

the two damn sickos.

ahhhhh. i dont know why i agreed to go on this stupid movie, but banana its not your fault okay! just make sure you kill your friend tmr, then i'll be happy. stop blaming yourself for me sleeping in the movie! :D

yes, the movie is just stupid. and luckily there was some technical error 10 minutes before the show ended, so the manager said its either you get a refund or get complimentary tickets. we took the refund instead. muahahahahhaha. but actually i quite wanted to watch the last 10 minutes, cause i want to know how the movie ended. maybe i should just go and find some online sources and watch the last 10 minutes.

& yes! i'm getting excited. exactly one more month later i'm flying off alr! :D :D :D hahhaha. madness. and ya, i was just talking to peizhen. and realised that thursday is PUBLIC HOLIDAY! whahahaha. but still, JC KIDS = DEPRIVED KIDS.

):

2008-04-24T21:19:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhh. i'm sorry to say this, but can anyone just go kill all the ind*ans out there?

dang it lah. today not a good day. totally oh so no. cause it damn suck today lah! ahhhh. first thing went to ctg venue today and then miss lim said that mr fazli didnt come. wha, the first thing that came into my mind was, GOOD MAN CAN GO LIBRARY CHIONG PI.

after GP lecture then went to library to chiong PI, doing doing doing alr very hungry. but then tried to like tahan a bit. okay fine and well and went to chem tutorials after the library thing.

chem tutorial was alright lah, just that i think miss lim is getting a little bit fed up and irritated alr. HEY 122, LETS NOT BE HER BAD KIDS OKAY!

and i skipped maths lecture also, JUST TO CHIONG THAT DAMN BLOODY PI. okay never mind. was doing it. cause after the math lect was supposed to be one hour of csccse, so we had 2 hours of break. dang it totally.

i finished my PI at about 12.30 i think. and i swear i wasnt going to stay inside the library anymore cause it was damn irritating. and we were like SUPER HUNGRY alr, jessica and i zoomed down to canteen to grab food.

and i chionged the food like i didnt eat for how many years. and you know. the great reaction happens when your stomach has been empty for quite some time, then when your stomach's gonna protest by screaming and screeching, you gobble food down like no one's business. wha i tell you, i really felt like dying during econs tutorial. consistently the pain comes back.

went for chinese then. dang it. then sherlyn came to say that sami didnt even check cause he didnt have the time. WHA PIANG, then dang him lah, dont ask us to pass up today lah! RAWR.

thats why i made that sweeping statement just now. ;D benjamin, DONE LAH, dont ask me anymore, pekchek ah.

2008-04-23T21:31:00.002+08:00

HELLO! hahahah. i'm in so super good mood. cause i'm SO OVER RYAN LAH PLEASE. hahhahaha. i didnt mean to put his name so big, but ya, i'm so like not bothered by it anymore. and all i have to thank is JONATHAN CHEW THE BANANA. :D hahahaha. cause the banana made the coconut happy by filling up coconut juice. OKAY, i dont know what i'm talking about either. LOL.

school was, SLACK. except for the part where is was doing the stupid gpp alone at library during their csecsc! hahahh! but i managed to get it out with yongjun coming to help me at the end!

okay, i gonna end here. hhaahha. if not boyfriend 3's gonna roar at me! :D

2008-04-21T21:44:00.002+08:00

today is a super dang day.

i got my answer from him. not face to face but i got the answer. i mean, i was sad. i AM sad. hahah.

& yes! there was a school fire alarm thingy. ahahhah! for a moment we all thought it was yiting who went to break the thing cause she said she did it once in her sch last time. LOL. but then it was for real lah. at first i thought, wow, yjc gonna get FIRE eh! LOL. hahhah. assembled at the whatever you call that place. and hahaha, madness. steph and i opened umbrella and started singing the song. =.= HAHAHAH.

hahahahahahaha. then i was perspiring like mad. AND OH YES. i was almost late this morning. please, since i got out of that damn train station i was almost running to school alr. zomg lah please. its damn scary. i was just like RUNNING lah. when i reached school and was at the quadrangle, sweating like some donkey. hahaha.

maths test is a goner. but i will score some marks i think.

its a dang day. i have 3 boyfriends now! first one is jonathan, and i'm going on a date with him tmr! yaaayness. dexter is second. benjamin comes next. hahah!

2008-04-19T23:32:00.003+08:00

& yup. i decided to blog fast fast. but no pictures yet cause cindy's not online & quite a lot of photos are with her! LOL.

J1 ODACians went to yishun SAFRA for this climbing course, ... and we all GRADUATED! (as level one of course!) lol. at first i thought it would be like super boring. and yes, it was. but i meant the theory. please, which theory is fun. and really, i have to admit that i almost just fell asleep when chew (omg, not that UNITY MR CHEW!) was talking about the equipments. but the fun started after adrian (LEE SOON FAH, ITS NOT YOU) demo-ed the harness... muahahahaah.

had some knots lesson.

learnt about belaying.

& we had test-falling sessions. hahaha! & went for a one hour lunch break. got back to SAFRA and we started.... CLIMBING! :D

i shall post my photo of climbing when i get it from cindy. muahahahhahha. cause its like oh-so-nice. hahaha. i climbed the highest among the girls! gees. about 16-17 metres? aahahahahhaah. and i came down complaining that there's nothing to hold on to move up further lah! hahaah. & yangjie went to try that route also, and he ended up falling from where i fell cause he complained that there was nothing to hold on too! muahahhahahah!

& yea, i did belaying for xiting and pinye. hahah. and oh, the funniest thing was that. yaojun (aka meimei aka bear bear in CTG122) was climbing. then the first time kenneth was his belayer, and you know what! KENNETH FLEW OFF THE GROUND CAUSE YJ SAID HE WAS GOING TO FALL. and i was so sad i didnt get to see this part! hahahha. but then again, you know what! THIS HAPPENED TO BILLY WHEN HE BELAYED YJ TOO! omg. and i saw billy flying up and pulling the rope.

hahaah. just some funny things to share with.

right and i think the post is no longer short. LOL. & i'm supposed to be doing PI instead of blogging! ahahhahahaha. & sleep asap. PLUS FLU NOW, I'M HORRENDOUS BAD. ): & totally not in the right state of mind. :D

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i thought i would fall badly from where i climbed to. but it made me realise today that i dont need to fall, i can just ask someone else to help me down.

dont know if you ever realised, we havent talk/sms/communicate for 4 days. maybe it doesnt matter to you, but it means a thousand to me.